Read this great blog about finding out you have MS
Your essay really hit home for me, as it expressed exactly how i felt waiting for the dr to tell me the news. As i was walking into the doctors, there was a long hall to get to his door and i thought to myself, "when i walk out this door my life will be changed forever" and it did. But like you said, it doesn't define me, thinking the worst is only a first response, since i had progressive kind i thought my life was over. After the initail shock of it all, was over, i developed into a calm state where i began the first day of the rest of my life. My MS stabilized and hasn't progressed in 10 years, . One day when i was cleaning out my closets, i found my journals from the early days when i first moved to ORegon, when i worked as a timber inventory forester in the Wallowa Mts in eastern OR. As i read them, i started to chuckle and thought, these would make a good book, so i wrote three fictionalized memoirs, i never would have found the time to write, if it wasn't because of MS. I worked 35 years in service to people with disabilities, who better to know, life can be just as good even if you use a walker or are in a wheelchair. My profession taught me how to access grants, durable medical equipment so i knew the ropes. So without MS i never would have published my three books. "The Eve Chronicles" by Diane DeVillers, check it out on amazon. Life changes, we adapt, and then finally we accept. Your story transported me back to the early days when i found out that yes MS can be a monster, but i am no longer afraid of my dragon, who waits for me, who someday will consume me, but i fight it, i do my best to adapt and move forward to what ever my path will be.