My despair grew higher as I realized I did not have a clue about blogging. Gee, I must get into it! I should start building up a blog… Reach the blogosphere… HTML… interesting, challenging… completely out of my daily routine… Nine out of ten times, I know what I am doing. I am known for being annoying sometimes and scaring people by the amount of pressure I put into them when I ask them to perform their tasks in this or that way. That is because I am used to being ‘the hole of the doughnut’, completely knowledgeable, intensely ‘into it’ (letting everyone know about it, too). Oh, yeah, I know it all… Do I really? I found out today that this is not the real case! Sisters, I have got to cry out for help, as I am not the tough cookie anymore. Here is THE one topic I don’t know anything about: blogging… Today I have browsed postings from my friends to see how they went about this assignment, and I got really inspired. I said to myself: ‘ wow, this is it, now I can start writing’… and when I sat down in my computer, words just would not come to me. I had to cope with this irrational feeling of despair, as I realized words weren’t coming not because I was a bad writer, but because for the first time in my life, I am not knowledgeable and dependable in the matter I have to write about, so to speak, I just am not a blogger. Or so I thought until I read some more posts. Then I realized I had been blogging all this time by posting my entries here! And I got to know about my peers and their experiences, so I felt like a kid with a new toy. I laughed at myself outloud when I realized I was such a youngster in this arena, and that, due to my ignorance, I have been doing some fearless blogging, meaning that I have made a lot of mistakes. But then again, what’s the regret? Since acting young and fearless in the blogosphere (wow, what a nice word), has given me the chance to meet so many new girlfriends, from all over the world, from such different backgrounds, and most importantly, to get to love them and understand their different points of view, I have nothing to worry about. I may well be the most ignorant blogger right now (Gosh, my coworkers are going to love to hear me admit I am ignorant about something, they will make fun of me for at least a month), but I am also the most eager to learn.

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Kudos to you for being so honest in you entry. You have managed to detail your feelings about blogging in a very personable and relatable way. Not everyone is a longtime blogger and I think the purpose of this assignment is to shine a light on the fact that many of those newly blogging on the VOF forum may be going into this blindfolded but are going to come out with their eyes wide open.

I must admit, this was, for me, the most challenging assignment yet. If I tell you, I sat at my computer for a good hour or so, completely stumped, before any of the words came to me. I didn't have a clue as to where to begin because I didn't want to state the obvious but, then again, so many interesting and thought-provoking ideas had already been raised by our fellow "bloggers"...

Keep writing here...anywhere...Jackie. Let your words shine. You are a blogger, too, didn't you know? ;)

With love,


Dear Jackie,

I think many times, not knowing what lies ahead of you gives you an advantage, as you act without too much tremor or remorse, so you act fearless. Of course, you also make some mistakes, but it is all worth it at the end.

I will try to write somewhere else too. I will start looking. I will also try to build myself a blog, but I've got to do some research first.

Love ya,


Jacqueline Patiño FundActiva Tarija - Bolivia South America

I had posted the same sort of thing on someones comment about being a listener:

I was glad I did since my first 2 paragraphs were as far as I had gotten in my thinking before deleting it and thinking I would try again the next day!

My girls and I were laughing so hard as I realized I had already been blogging without realizing it!


I love your picture since your hair color, hairstyle and smile remind me so much of my cousin (my mom's sister's daughter) who was a strong woman and one all of our family from out of town stayed at. I think I spent half my childhood at her house with my best friend who was her husband's daughter from a previous girlfriend. Every time I read one your posts I am reminded of her again since she has that same strong spirit as you!


Dear Maria:

I´d love to get to know some more about you. You can send me some pictures to my private e-mail, and if you send me your private e-mail, I will send you some of mine too.



Jacqueline Patiño FundActiva Tarija - Bolivia South America

Dear Jackie, I have to tell you, this is what makes you so young--learning new things all the time, like a kid having a new toy. I believe you're a good writer, as much as a good person, for tearing off the mask and revealing your true self to us. I cannot love a person (a friend, a lover, a teacher, whoever) who isn't true to her/himself. And that's what I love about you!

thank you for sharing, katea

Poverty is man-made that we can undo.

The greatest hindrance to ones success is fear . But you have overcome that by taking a bold step to understand this new jargon. Keep up with the spirit lady. You have come from far and the journey is still going on. Waiting to read your new blog soonest.

I also didn't know how HTML is used until I experimented with the instructions in the learning material of VOF week 3. I felt so great for having discovered something new just like how kids get excited when they get their first gift.

Cheers, Carol

Thanks for the comment. I appreciate it a lot. I have also reviewed the material and will be using it on a page soon. I just need to make some space in my everyday tasks. I'll let you know!


Jacqueline Patiño FundActiva Tarija - Bolivia South America

Just like you, I realized ive been blogging all along.Just on bad bad websites, you know the ones that are not structured well, information is everywhere etc etc.Hence my apprehension to blogger world!

thank you i think you done alot of great jobs. you do involve with many people. i am glad to read your journal. i am looking foward to reading your journal. i wish you more beauty, sucessful in your life. than you

It's humbling, trying to keep up with technology! Glad you're keeping your sense of humor. Turns out it's not so hard to blog, after all. Keep it up!