As I start this post, I must confess to be filled with joy and gratitude. Why? Because, there are many positive things going on right now in my life.
My heart beats with excitement and in my head there are so many ideas running wild, it even makes me dizzy.
Oh so many dreams united in one!
My Heart and Mind finally harmoniously united, no more internal fights between my fears and my rational self. I decided to just jump and do it. Like a parachute jump for the very first time: Pure Adrenaline!
I have found again that state of flow, I longed for years, a sense of meaning to be working for a project larger than life, anyone who knows a bit about my home country knows, how hard it is to change things for the better there. To unify a divided and dispersed nation will take time... but, I am looking forward to give it a try.
Isn´t that what we all long for? Do something meaningful?
At the same time, so many other questions to be answered:
Will I be able to make it? Will I have the endurance to make these dreams come true?
To be quite honest:
I don´t know a definite answer to this questions yet, only time will tell but I hope I can.
To become a social Entrepreneur is a major risk and Oh dear! I stand at very beginning of this long path and while setting the basis for a sustainable organisation, that will help unite Honduran migrants all around the world through the World Wide Web, I take a deep breath and realize with humility that I know nothing about the non-profit field.
So many things to learn and so little time...but I do it as I child does: to Learn with joy and curiosity. Just as I did when I first came to Germany and could not speak a word of the language.
I am not afraid of long, curvy and steep paths, in fact, it is the only thing I have experience in my "life-line" so far.
There haven´t been shortcuts of any kind (as much as I would have loved to have it once or twice) nope, every single time I thought: "Oh this is going to be easy" I ended up standing at a U turn...over and over again. What a bummer, Life is not like a German highway! :)
Anyhow, easy was not meant for me, but I do not complain, I do not have the right to. After all, I can count myself among the lucky ones, something I did not realize until I left home for the first time in 1998. For the first time, I was able to see the forest for the trees. A view I would have probably not be able to grasp so easily by staying there.
I feel joyful because all the hardships in my life have been the training for what is coming and I have a strong gut feeling to be on the right track.
My inspiration and celebration for the 1st. of may (Labor day) was listening to an amazing Colombian singer called "Fonseca" and his wonderful song called "Gratitud" (Gratitude) which is an "Ode to Joy" about the upbringing in the home country, about all the beautiful things that make a culture: family, friends, landscape, food, traditions, festivities...gratitude about the love and the values given, for the friendship and the goodness in the hearts of the people and for the music as well. Wanna listen to it? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KLzzIvYdWxM I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.
Honduras, my beloved Land, I miss you so much! I wanna see the happiness in the faces of the people. I wanna come back some day to the country of my childhood memories. I wish to hear someday from my friends over there say to me: "hey, why don´t you come back? There are jobs in here, life is good in here, there is nothing to be afraid of, its time to return!"
Honduras, its name is so unusual for a country; the word comes from "fondura", a Leonese language word (from Spain) meaning anchorage.
As Honduran Poetess Juana Pavón once wrote: "I have always believed that Honduras has a woman's name"
Yes, Dear Juana, I believe it too.
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