In no way, I wanted to study commerce because it is just not of my interest. I had a vision to become a lawyer since childhood, but I forgot that I am a gal and I am restricted from having such dreams. After completing my school, my dad never thought of allowing me to continue my studies. But somehow, due to my mom support and endeavor, I was send to India to complete my +12 level but had to choose the stream preferred by my parents. I again came back to Nepal and wanted to continue my studies, but my dad, as usual, again stopped me from studying. I got aggravated by hearing dialogues “you, are a gal and you should not study much. If you study higher then we will have difficulty finding a guy for you. Your studies are of no value because one day you have to get married and indulge in the household chores. Let your brother study because he is a boy and in future he is the one to take care of us feed us”. Hearing such words bought tears in my eyes. Such judgment made me so weak and was thus I was unable to help my self.
Once again, it was my mom who embraced me and compelled my dad to let me finish my bachelors. All my friends were planning to fly abroad for their graduation, where I, powerless, had to choose to stay back to Nepal to study by keeping the fact in mind that at least I m getting a chance to study. My mom always wanted me to learn as much as possible and had high expectations from me.
The reason my dad was not in my support always bothered me. Just being a girl, I had to forfeit so many things. My entire relatives are still against me and my studies. They still yell at my dad by telling that he shouldn’t have let me study further and it really pinches a lot.
In my family I consider myself to be lucky because my cousins were forced to leave their studies after their schooling. My cousins always come to me and tell me that she always wanted to study further but due to the torture given by her parents they could not continue. Few of my cousins were married as soon as they reached the age of 18 which was so embarrassing. They were forced to marry the guy selected by their parents. And after the marriage it was found that the guy was really a big jerk and my cousin had to live the whole life with full of pain and nothing else. Pain, sacrifice, tolerance is all what the girls are going through.