I had for a long time, looked to my ex as the source of my livelihood. It did not help that he was also very willing to string me along and make me think that we still had a chance.
The loss you feel makes me sad. It makes me feel worse knowing only I can fill it, but won't. I feel the loss too, and only you could fill it too, but I won't let you.
As I write this I am faced with letting go of many things in my life, and I am pondering why it is so hard to let go when I know what is for my highest and best is always what is emerging.