Keep on fighting

Akshaya9
Posted March 24, 2019

Being a mother if your kid's is not complete beside you it's like you're life is empty or your day is not complete. I have 8 kid's, 7 boy's (become 7 because I have triplets) and 1 girl. My first son to my previous relationship stayed to my mother in philippines and my first son with my husband now is missing, it breaks my heart that everyday; every minute or seconds you don't even know where's my son goes. We know who abducted my son but we can't do anything to do a report because my documents is not yet done for some reasons, in short I'm considered overstayed in this country. It's been 4yrs that I never seen my son, I want to give up but I still have my kid's who depend on me and need me.

I regret of trusting strangers to be friend and treat them as my family. If I know it would happened like this I wouldn't allow them to be friend with my son but it's too late to regret.

Theirs a time that I question Him, why I face this kind of situations; why my son is not with me and why me?  I need to be strong and have faith on Him, hoping that one day my son missing will come back to us. Keep on hoping, keep on fighting!

This story was submitted in response to Change Starts With a Story.

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Jill Langhus
Mar 25
Mar 25

Hello Akshaya,

Welcome to World Pulse:-) Wow! You have your hands full there! I'm so sorry about your missing son:-( Thanks for sharing your story, dear. I hope you will be reunited with your son soon.

Akshaya9
Mar 26
Mar 26

Hi jlanghus
Thank you for giving me hope

Jill Langhus
Mar 26
Mar 26

You're welcome, lovely:-) Any time...

Beth Lacey
Mar 26
Mar 26

I am so sorry to hear this story. I hope you continue to find the strength to go on. The World Pulse community is here for you.

Akshaya9
Mar 26
Mar 26

Hi beth,
Thank you

Tamarack Verrall
Mar 26
Mar 26

Dear Akshaya,
Welcome to World Pulse. I am so sorry to read that you have been betrayed and have lost contact with one of your sons by people pretending to be friends. I can also appreciate the vulnerable position you are in having documents not in place. Is there any agency or anyone in your faith community who can advocate for you and help secure your status in your country? I am glad you have found World Pulse, as here we can at least show you that we care about what is happening to you.

Akshaya9
Mar 26
Mar 26

Hi Tamarack,
We have agency here who's doing the documents but we are in financially crisis right now because my husband work is not permanent that's why we need to find ways to solved this.
Thank you

Hello, my beloved friend,

I am so proud of you for finding the courage to break your silence and tell your story. I honor your journey, and I hope with you that one day you can finally embrace your son.

As a mother, I cry with you. Oh, the agony of not knowing where he is and what he is doing breaks my heart, too. You are such a strong woman.

I’m happy that you’re here. There are women who will walk alongside you until you find solutions to your problems (documents, etc). Hold on. Stay strong. Hugs always!:)

Akshaya9
Mar 26
Mar 26

Hi Kaye,
Thank you for introducing me in this community, now I can express my feelings that I kept for so long. Nobody will judge me for who I am and willing to listen my story in life.
Take care and miss you

Hello, Jack,

I treasure your words so much. This is exactly the reason why I keep promoting World Pulse so women will have a space to unload their burdens without the fear of being judged. I am really, really happy that you are here.

You can also write about women in Malaysia, whatever you experience or observe there.

Please keep on writing! Happy to now call you my World Pulse sister. :)

Akshaya9
Mar 28
Mar 28

Hi kaye,
Soon I'll write about here :)
Again thank you :)

Tola Makinde
Mar 26
Mar 26

Welcome to world pulse,
You are gradually going to hve to find your path to discover the healing you need. Don't let this weigh you down too much. Be positive and remain strong that one day your son will come back to you. Life is a lesson but do not let life's troubles defeat your purpose. With prayerful thoughts

Stay hopeful

Akshaya9
Mar 27
Mar 27

Hi Tola,
Thank you for your message. I keep on hoping and my remaining children is my strength to continue in believing that one day my son will come back.

Dawn Arteaga
Mar 27
Mar 27

Akshaya, as a mother my heart breaks for you. You are so right that there can be no peace until you feel your children are safe. I am with you and holding your hand from the distance. Keep on hoping! Keep on fighting! I am with you. - Dawn

Akshaya9
Mar 27
Mar 27

Hi Dawn,
Thank you for the nice message and giving me comfort.