So many years passed by, i feel like more bad times i experienced than good times. Sometimes I asked myself, " did i born to be suffered in this world? ".
One day, i send to my aunt ( my father sister and she's a pastor) about the story i wrote here , "My pain as a daughter and my hope as a mother ". After she read my story, she feel sorry because she didn't know what I'm going through before.
She even said to me " the Lord loves you so much, His with you always ", i don't understand why my aunt told me that God's love me while I experienced all this suffering in my life.
But then, I realized why God's love me. Without all this trials that He gave me, I may not be a strong woman right now who's fighting the battle of my life until today. God mold me to be indomitable woman, that's why I'm still standing here and facing all the challenges in my life.
In times of darkness of my life i can find light through to Him, the Glory of God and to my kid's. God showing me not to lost hope, keep on fighting the battle and be the survivor of this storm because I'll still have my kid's who depend on me.
And one day, i can win the battle and i can see the rainbow in my life.