A mixture of hope and dispair.

Do the words hope and dispair even exist in the same sentence? That's my current state. My name is Agatah Kimanzi from Kenya. A 30 year old lady. My entire life have lived admiring the likes of notable women with excellent college Education doing marvellous work for girl child globally. 

I have watched Mrs. Obama's speeches on the importance of college education especially for our girls. I have watched and admired in awe,  women  all over the world supporting each other and against all odds raising up across different dimensions. I have watched women like Viola Davis beating the odds, breaking barriers, and most recently I just witnessed, we all witnessed the first female vice president of the United States. As if that was not amazing enough, we have the first African female president in Tanzania. Wow! What a wonderful moment to be alive! I couldn't be more proud that we continue breaking ceilings. It is possible, it has always been possible but it became alot easier when we realized the power of coming together and being better than just tearing each other down. The journey just began we have miles to cover but so far I am so proud of us. 

However to some of us it seems like a distance dream, one that you enjoy while the slumber lasts. How can I be the Michelle Obama or Kamala Harris of tomorrow without an education?. How can i even inspire my little sister if the circle is never broken? I recently got accepted to several Universities in the US, I am so proud of myself. Two of the Universities got me partial scholarships, I was so happy and hopeful that I get to be the first, despite my age to have stepped a foot into collage doors, I was so hopeful that the journey to break poverty circle and a foundation of hope and inspiration to the generation after me has began, but alas! That lasted only a while and reality hit me that I can barely feed my siblings let alone afford 50,000 dollars of the remaining tuition, board, air ticket and stipend yearly. My mom, the only parent we have has never earned $500 dollars in her entire life. The government doesn't even care! Story for another day. So my American dream ended and I decided to wake up and carry on! 

I however will keep the desire alive, one day I will walk on the stage no matter how old I will be to collect my degree and give a beautiful speech that will transcend through generations! I will tell them how I hoped and waited for years to earn a degree despite having done so well in high school. I will tell them poverty is a monster and being a first generation student is even alot harder! I will give them hope that everything is possible, just a little more patience. Until then, let me hope!  Thank you.