Ache

Anupama Jain
Posted March 19, 2021 from India

I watch him getting ready

Calm and collected

Choosing non-confrontational white

eschewing my fave mauve

and his beloved ink-blue 

Memories singe

Words vanish

I choose a non-confrontational breakfast routine

We bury our heads in respective news rags

Butter the burnt toast

Check the pings

The coffee scalds

Cutlery converse

Flavors left unsavored

He makes the first move

A dry peck on the forehead

A desultory ‘see you soon

Vanishes before I auto-respond

I exhale a relief

Mull my escape options

Settle instead for the habitual domestic drone

But shed a sorry tear

At the terrible descent

From a soulmate to a teammate

A dead romance

A heart gone astray

A marriage of convenience

These sounds of silence

Overpowering and shrill

Being brave is brutal

Being the norm is breaking

Yet sickeningly comforting

Waking up to walk tall

Or to even walk away

Just an abandoned dream...Maybe another day!

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Jill Langhus
Mar 20
Mar 20

Hi Anupama,

Welcome to World Pulse! Thanks for sharing your powerful poem. Is this autobiographical, dear?

Looking forward to seeing more posts from you.

Anupama Jain
Mar 21
Mar 21

Hello Jill,
I guess, we all have those phases when what I wrote happens. Happened to me too but then I learned to quickly love myself. A lot! That made a difference. Thank you so much for reading my post and liking it. My first here - will learn more I travel with you all

Jill Langhus
Mar 22
Mar 22

Hi Anupama,

I'm glad you've learned to love yourself. It makes all the difference.

You're very welcome. Thank you!

Hope you have a great week.

Busayo Obisakin
Mar 20
Mar 20

Welcome to World Pulse Anupama and for sharing your wonderful poem with us. Keep on thriving online!
Love
Busayo

Anupama Jain
Mar 21
Mar 21

Dear Busayo Obisakin Thank you so much for reading my post and liking it. My first here - will learn more I travel with you all. Cherish the warmth

Nini Mappo
Mar 21
Mar 21

Hello Anupama,
Welcome to World Pulse. What a soulful poem. But it is unfortunately the reality of many relationships. Thank you for sharing with us. Now I am wondering if there are any known ways to rekindle a stale love.

Anupama Jain
Mar 21
Mar 21

Dear Nini Mappo
Thank you so much for reading my post and liking it. My first here - will learn more I travel with you all
About ways to rekindling stale love? I personally feel we lose the plot when we put the onus of our happiness in others' hands. Keep trying, keep moving and keep hoping <3

Hello Anupama, welcome to World Pulse and thank you for sharing your poetic art with us. I felt deep expression in your words, pouring out the truth of mixed emotions of relationships that change, fade and move - the loss, the hope, the longing, the power of your words runs deep. This line wow, it hit me: "being brave is brutal" - such beautiful paradoxes you bring together in how you use your words, a gift you have, keep on sharing!

Hugs from Montreal, Canada,
Adriana

Anupama Jain
Mar 21
Mar 21

Dear Adriana Greenblatt,
I am overwhelmed by the generous compliments you have showered on my free prose. This means a lot.
Thank you so much for reading my post and liking it. My first here - will learn more I travel with you all.

Kirthi Jayakumar
Mar 21
Mar 21

Dearest AJ, my heart is full seeing you here on World Pulse - thank you so much for agreeing to join this beautiful ocean of love and welcoming! I am so grateful to have the opportunity to read your writing here, too! Thank you for your beautiful poem and your powerful voice <3

Anupama Jain
Mar 21
Mar 21

Dearest Kirthi <3 You know na what I feel about you! Words always fall short. I will always wish you the sky! blessed be

Paulina Nayra
Mar 28
Mar 28

Dear Anupama,
Sigh. Many can relate to your poem. You have expressed it sadly, painfully. "May be another day" said the wife who felt neglected, the mother who is unvalued, the sweetheart who is battered.
Thanks for sharing this.
Very tight huggs. Please stay safe.