Dreams or love! What would you choose?

Posted February 25, 2020 from India

Well, like every simple girl I choose love after being tired of chasing my dreams. I got married to a Muslim fellow after getting converted and led a happy life for a year. I was asked to leave my job to handle their school which though was a English medium school but people ended up speaking in urdu and majority of the population are Muslim who were forced to study. It was a nightmare to see the principal shouting out on parents and children for fees in local language who claims to have studied till 8th standard from a convent. It was a pathetic experience altogether. I was given a 10k for teaching students there. It was the highest pay in the school. My heart mourned when I saw teachers not getting their proper remuneration. We say teaching is a noble profession and teachers are the backbone of the society. Every individual take up a certain profession for their needs which may vary from financial to personal needs. But how can our society turn blind to these teachers needs who are responsible for today's educated society. It is the teacher who has groomed and nurtured every bio-social animal in the society. Why can't we recompense them in a proper way ? Giving them recompense is our utmost duty to keep the teachers satisfied so that we move towards an educated society. Now that I'm pregnant I stopped going to school. I'm unable to take up any stress in this period. The doctor had tested that my blood pressure is high and adviced me to take bed rest. In the meantime, i came to know that being the only son of his mother he doesn't have a fixed income from his school. However, before marriage I was asked to leave the job because the school expenses are enough for the whole family. Now family is extended with step father who has interest in the school. Apart from this my sister in law who was not part of the school suddenly became part of it. Next comes my cousin father in law who too left driving ola car in the morning to find some interest in the family business. The funniest part is whatever I taught in school was termed wrong by my in laws. Maybe they were plotting to remove me from the school business. That was nothing but a strategy to target me. Now that I realize every bit of it I feel people are so fake. They aren't afraid of the Lord, Allah. Offering namaz and reading Quran does not make one a true Muslim. It is all in the bashira "your heart". Karma is something which never leaves anyone. We should be afraid of every karma or deeds of us. How do you feel when you sacrifice something for someone? And how do you feel when this someone asks you who asked you to sacrifice so much for me? Isn't it ridiculous. Well, there's nothing to be surprised, this is nothing but your destiny. We should all take it easy like I'm still doing. When you get such a behavior from your husband, I don't think anybody would count on their enemies. Differences still exist with him but I'm still carrying on with him not because I'm carrying our child but because I still expect things would get back to its place soon...

This story was submitted in response to Moments of Hope.

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Tamarack Verrall
Feb 25, 2020
Feb 25, 2020

Dear Arpi,
You ask what we would do, and my first answer is that I too would reach out to my sisterhood here for support and ideas. I am so glad you are here with us in World Pulse as you make these important decisions about your life. Life can be confusing and it can take time to ride through rough spots, and you have had many, to know what you want to do next, and to know what you want to do, to hold onto what your heart is saying to you. "It is all in the bashira "your heart"".
"Whatever I taught in school was termed wrong by my in laws...I still expect things would get back to its place soon". These words stand out for me. As your life continues, please stay in touch with us, your community. You are in the middle of thinking deeply about what you want, believing in yourself and holding firm decisions for the future. You are wise and will know, because you are giving yourself the chance to pay attention to your own heart. Right now you are about to have a baby. Keep trusting yourself, and please stay in touch.
Best wishes on your journey,

Elizabeth Ziro
Feb 25, 2020
Feb 25, 2020

A problem shared is half solved. A good experience I see there and glad that you can read between the lines. Instead of waiting for things to get back to place, you are already good to go. You can see the possibilities of establishing your own school, it can take some time but you will get there one day. You are potential!! My thoughts

Karen Quiñones-Axalan
Feb 25, 2020
Feb 25, 2020

Hello, Arpi,

Welcome to World Pulse! What a joy that a new voice from India is rising up! May I know how did you learn about World Pulse?

We’re happy that you are here. I agree with Tam and Elizabeth. Please continue to pour out your questions here. We are here to support you. How strange it is for your in-laws to be plotting your eviction at work. Please tell us more on your next posts. This is your safe online space.

Thank you for sharing your first post. Welcome again to our growing sisterhood!

Anita Shrestha
Feb 25, 2020
Feb 25, 2020

Dear Sis
both I choose

Mar 05, 2020
Mar 05, 2020

Welcome to world pulse,thanks for sharing
Jane Kalu

Shirin Dalaki
Mar 06, 2020
Mar 06, 2020

Dear Love,
I am so happy that you shared your story with us. I truly admire that you say "You choose love", this is huge and shows how much love you have in your heart. I hear you and like to share with you something very important. As a woman we must pay attention to our health because it has direct effect on our children.
I know people come and go out of our life and they can cause stress but you have only one body that wants your care, attention and nourishment, please be aware of that. We women have lots of love and compassion in our hearts and as long as we operate from this point we can continue chasing our dreams.
If you like I encourage you to share your dreams with us and we do nothing other than cheer you up and dream with you. This is what we like to do in this safe community. Lots of love sending your way.

Mar 12, 2020
Mar 12, 2020

Keep choosing love over everything - it keeps you sane and brings those that are true believers in you stay close