New Year

Asma Asfour
Posted January 1, 2022 from Germany

Hi

I only want to start my new year doing what I love. I will begin it by writing, first for myself and then for anyone who wants to read my words. I will not think much about the order of my words or my thoughts, because I do want my lines to be just a reflection of the chaos of my feelings and my reality. 

I admit that I am thankful to God for putting behind me a sad year that was an extension of isolation and a constant search for stability that I had lost for years. But who says reality is separated by the start of a new year? Does nature care about the divisions the human beings made of different spots of time? Does our transition from year to year really mean our separation from a year with its circumstances, its sadness, its joy, and its pain? Or do we do that as an attempt of hope that we have not found in reality. Yes, that is the case. When I heard that the astrological predictions prophesied much positivity for those born under my sign, I resisted all my feelings of frustration and loneliness, picked up my pen and wrote.

I have made many attempts to do what I love, or rather what I enjoy, as writing is as water and air to me, and perhaps my soul has been much tortured by ignoring what I love. Writing gives me an incredible capacity for self-talk, self-knowledge, and perhaps even challenge. Writing also gives me an indescribable sense of happiness. It makes me feel like I am breathing and that I have a word in this chaotic world, amidst these fake crowds, amidst hypocritical and also honest words.

I will promise myself this time to never let my pen out of my hand, and perhaps I will promise myself to do so in front of people, because I am one of those people who is least true to their promises to themselves and most true to their promises in front of people. This is not out of hypocrisy, but in search of a motive killed by pain and stupid bureaucracy, followed by people claiming modernity and democracy. These are the words of a desperate woman who wants to begin her new year with hope.

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rebecca.tang
Jan 02
Jan 02

Happy New Year! You are not alone. There are a lot of sis here to support each other. Writing is a way to express our feelings. You can write your story and share with us here. We are all with you.
May Almighty God bless you and everyone in this world with love!

shashe
Jan 02
Jan 02

Keep writing your truth and sharing. I hope you can find joy in your life and the strength to not be thwarted by negativity from both outside forces and inside emotions. Sending Love.

Tamarack Verrall
Jan 05
Jan 05

Dear Asma,
What a joy to read that you are determined, have promised yourself to let your pen flow, and as a start to this new calendar year. "Writing also gives me an indescribable sense of happiness. It makes me feel like I am breathing and that I have a word in this chaotic world...". This resonated deeply, and to share this with us all here, you inspire us to do the same. I look forward to reading more, may your pen fill pages, bring you joy and bring us all continued inspiration.

Grace Iliya
Jan 10
Jan 10

Please go ahead and enjoy what you love, it has a way of granting liberty.
Happy New Year

Much Love

Queen Sheba D Cisse
Jan 12
Jan 12

Greetings Asma,
here's to a Happy blessed New year and deciding how you want to start it.
Doing what you are passionate about is the right step and I also can relate to writing and expressing your thoughts and views.
Being true to thyself is very important and your heartfelt truth resonates. Gratitude and hope is what I hope for and I am happy to read your words here because everyone has a voice here at World Pulse. Congratulations and keep writing because you will inspire many to do the same.
sincerely,
Mama Queen

Annmichelle
Jan 26
Jan 26

Firstly Happy New Year
Your writing showed what passion and insightfulness you have . You should never let your pen be out of your hand - you have so much to share .
From isolation to story telling , you have found a safe platform .
Truly looking forward to more or your writing .