In a small tribe, where the fate of people was endowing with No Education , No awareness , No technologies , No facilities , No advance or modern way of Life , No Freedom , No ideas to flourish , No sense of living ….. as far as I'm concern to PRESENT developed world yet this " NO" is endow to my area. I assume perhaps this "NO" is normal with the people of mine as they are so poorly shaken down. In an area, where struggle to live could be much more difficult then what else they should expect for ?Yes! This is my area . This is in my blood and it raised me up seeing the toughest of all. Being girl it was a terrifically challenging to dream for something. And my dream was no big than engaging myself from the love of flying to aviation industry. I was so little when this idea came into mind. Perhaps a student of grade 5th. For people, it was a joke to let the kid enjoying her fancy world. But for me, it was clear I would rather like to die of passion than this boredom of tribe and conservative space, prevailing around of me.
A girl who sparkled her eyes with bigger dreams , who breathed the hope of change, who had fancy thinking of " Flying " It was just like a joke to dream for something which was an " alien " stuff to even think for the people of a poor tribe .Yes ! Its me who dreamt : " She Was Born To Fly ". I could remember I was so crazy I wrote my first childhood poem in the diary, which my father once brought for me and the poem is like ;
The heights of sky
The love of fly
The shining of stars
The swimming of clouds
Returning my eyes to the desire of dreaming
The saying of people there is lighting of shine into my eyes
the voice inside the heart continuous recalling ;
"She was born to fly."
It was like a frog desiring to get away of its hole and to make the WELL a beautiful place. But those little hands of mine which carved out such a bigger dream into simplest words was unaware of all blockages which were going to be proved iron-wall among me and my passion . Those little hands were unfamiliar with the battle which was going to be fought by me to turn my dream into reality. An area where girls were supposed to do households and after that their last destination is considered to marry them with a stranger and that's it.....I challenged my existence to a new level.
I started making research about aviation. In those days access to internet was difficult because we were not having any T.V or internet facility at home.I went on making interactions with people who knew little bit about aviation. I spent less on study but much on finding initial ways to get on the path. It was Like I was finding a black cat in the dark room.My family asked me to do pre medical but I was intoxicated with the taste of my own dreams.I did pre medical but forcefully, I was ready to do anything in term of assurance by my parents that OK they would like to concern about my aim. Even I was in such severe circumstances that no one was Concerning about my aim or dream.
They only had to tell me :" Oh Bella u can't fly just Get rid off this fuss and do what we tribe girls should…we can't send you in the far places for such a fancy dream "I wept for many nights, I screamed for months battling inside of me, and I strove nearly 7 years to Just make my parents understand.Then later I came to know flying is expensive and it was un-affordable for my sole earner father. But I didn't lose heart, I rather engaged myself with 'Bs in aviation management (from university of management and technology Lahore Pakistan). Lahore is far from my Tribe. Reaching Lahore was also a big problem but with consistence , self confident and passion I succeeded to come here.
Though there arose a lot of financial , family-support and cultural problems but I fought for my dream bravely . I made them assure that I will make myself a pride for all . Meanwhile, throughout this struggle, my parents at last supported me strongly.
I'm nearly done with my degree now. I carried whole degree on scholarship and managed independently to do part time jobs like teaching, content writing into few companies. I've been remained a distinctive student of my department working for other students as well. I came formulating a dedicated forum named " Aviation Literary forum" where our purpose is to gather all students on a same platform to show innovative ideas and practical life experiences into this field. For these dedications, I have been awarded 'an acknowledgment struggles to the field of aviation.'I am yet having passion to fly and hoping to destiny where i would be able to fulfill this dream too. i am never hopeless because there was a time even I was not having money to pay my bus fare towards Lahore but by now I have distinction into aviation degree with 4 year beautiful journey of my university life. So, I believe in achieving anything bigger into our lives as if you'r determine and passionate.Now I Look forward to work into aviation industry with the same spirit and energy. I would like to thanks my parents, my department ( Institute of Aviation Studies), sir Kalim ur Rehman and especially Captain Imran Saaed for supporting me a lot. I would like to end saying ;
"Flying got instantly into my soul , but the answer as to why , must be found somewhere back in the mystic maze of my birth , childhood and the circumstances of my earlier life . Whatever I'm is blessing and the beginning of it all have their roots in Dream-Road. I might have born in hovel but I determined to travel with the wind and stars."