Being 4th baby girl of my parents with no single brother at that time, I used to become more picky about being a TomBoy girl. For me, it was like awkward to be called as a girl. Perhaps, it was the people and society around of me ; telling every time how bad it is to be a girl on this Earth. I started becoming rebellious against girls. I never wanted to wear pink or to play with dolls. Since grade 10th my haircut was more like boys than girls. I used to have friends circle including all bossy boys. I even sometime beaten girls. I was too young to understand my own identity. It was the society and people who were driving me more negatively about not having an identity of being girl.
As longer as I grew up, I started feeling something different to be explored inside of me. As longer as I connected with the thoughts of maturity and sensibilities; I embraced my lost identity. I stood like an iron girl and broke stereotypes. I started dreaming like a fancy girl. I thought why should I be copying to be a boy ? I am more powerful into my own identity of being girl. I left all fears and doubters behind and walked like a queen.
I believe being fragile and beautiful is though my scenery but the paint used for coloring is too strong to compete my picture.
Yes, I am a refined girl. I am a proud girl. I am not weak. I have an identity. No more attractions or wishes to be a boy instead. I am more strong being a girl though. This is my world. This is my life.
Happy Girl :)