All Hope was Lost. Struggling To Survive Was My Only Option

Beltivate
Posted August 11, 2019 from Cameroon
Reality hits me at the face
Reality hits me at the face: Left with no option, so I began buying at selling at age 9. (1/1)

When  things became difficult, we could barely feed. So together with my immediate  big sis, we joined our mum at the market. 

I trade any and every thing I could buy and sell, walk up and down from one sport to another shouting to seek customers  attention and selling. This was so hard for me, and YES some days I cryed but discovered crying wasn't helping  so I had to keep doing what I was doing. 

In all this, I never for once, loss hope my dad would  come or for see  him coming already about to die. Life, struggle and hardship kept slapping me at the face.The whole of that year, i watch my mates go to school while I was with a tray and goods on my head trading for survival (how painful it was ). 

The most hurting thing was, some days I will sell and the money will be stolen, i return home with zero profit and zero capital . This didn't happen once, not twice nor three time. It happened  over and over and they stole my money. And if only those thieves knew my condition,   I think they won't  have dared to steal from an abandon and suffering child.

Times without number I cut my hand with the Eru knife and each time that happens, "i will tell my mum my dad will come and see this mark on my hand and I will ask him why??" But dead took my father before  I could voice my struggles  and feelings. 

My mum, cries often as she felt guilty of our stress, as she cries and thinks she grew pale and pale.

The money I work, part I save for my next school fees and some taken straight to the hospital to help my younger brother who came out a sickle cell patient

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Jill Langhus
Aug 12, 2019
Aug 12, 2019

Hi again,

Thanks for sharing this part of your story. I can't imagine how difficult this was for you, your mom and your brother. How is your brother now?

Beltivate
Aug 13, 2019
Aug 13, 2019

My brother is getting much better. With abit of flesh now

Jill Langhus
Aug 14, 2019
Aug 14, 2019

Great to hear:-)

Karen Quiñones-Axalan
Aug 12, 2019
Aug 12, 2019

Hello, sister,

You have been through so much as a child. It is heartbreaking that you have to work because you are left with no choice. Hugs, dear.

Keep on fighting. Your diligence will open doors for you.

Beltivate
Aug 13, 2019
Aug 13, 2019

Thank you so much

Karen Quiñones-Axalan
Aug 13, 2019
Aug 13, 2019

You're welcome, dear.

Beth Lacey
Aug 15, 2019
Aug 15, 2019

I feel very sorry for your situation. I hope things improve for you and your family

Beltivate
Aug 16, 2019
Aug 16, 2019

My wish too

Wusufor
Aug 20, 2019
Aug 20, 2019

Thanks for sharing your once nightmare with us. So sorry you have to deal with it. I hope now you can reflect and see how this hardship strengthen you. Warm regards

Beltivate
Aug 23, 2019
Aug 23, 2019

Thank u sister

Wusufor
Aug 24, 2019
Aug 24, 2019

No mention :-)