GIVING UP IS OUT OF CONTEXT

Bettina Amendi
Posted March 4, 2019 from Kenya

I joined World Pulse in 2012 and i was so brief as i thought it was a market place to sell my tour packages as a tourpreneur.I got distracted and i left.I was on a journey looking for answers.As i looked at my past i was overwhelmed with the fear of the unknown.I grew up where domestic  violence was the order of the day.I escaped to a home of a Man of God only to be controlled and manipulated using the bible.

I lived sighing  daily human beings are wicked and am yet to see more.This eroded my career choice as i went for an option that had minimal human interaction,Wildlife Management as a line of duty and passion.I did my attatchment at Nairobi National Park,Animal Orphanage in the Education Department of Kenya Wildlife Service.I would guide tourists and at times help the animal keepers as they fed the wild animals who were mainly resqued as young orphans.It was a lovely assignment.I was happy.The day i managed to take photos with the cheetah and lion cubs i jubilated,but it was short lived when i visisted the David Sheldrick Trust and saw the orphaned Elephant calves i wanted to be there for them.

One lovely afternoon as i was guiding students in the Nairobi National Park our car broke the axle and i went out to fetch it about 10 metres from the car.It was wrong as i was in the wild but i took a risk and went.When i came back to the nissan i went ontop of the roof so as to fly a red handkerchief that would draw other people attention and we  get help,i saw a pride of lions lounging  within the perimeter i had risked to walk on foot.I was shocked and lucky to be alive to tell the story.That did not stop me to love wild animals.Years later i had to deliver handcrafts to my clients who have their offices in the Nairobi National Park,on this beautiful day again another episode.When i came to the park main gate on Magadi Road,the rangers allowed me in on foot.On getting to my clients location,the gatekeeper was shocked and yelled at me come in quickly we have a rogue lion on the loose.

This troubled my heart and i realised though human beings are wicked not all of them but wild animals will remain to be animals.I had just met a man with a big heart and i was meant to meet others,that moved me.In the state i was in i opted to work on myself too as i prepared to move into the human kingdom without reservations.The first step was to accept i can not change my past,secondly i had to forgive myself and thirdly to forgive others.I stopped the blame game and took responsibility of working on myself on the areas i had failed me.

Confidence is crucial to a happy and fulfilling life.It influences your success at work,your family life,relationships and leisure activities.It affects your performance in everything you do.A belief in one's self is without doubt the greatest asset of all.Even great wealth and fame can not compensate for a poor self-image.

People who lack confidence and self-belief always underachieve.They are less adventurous and less likely to get the most out of life.They are more prone to a variety of stress related problems including anxiety,drinking,smoking,eating disorder and mental health problems.Low self-esteem is the fundamental cause of most family break-ups,poor parenting and relationship problems.In addition much crime is associated with drug abuse,unemployment and poverty,all of which are related to low self -esteem.

The greatest battle is that low self confidence evidences are not tangible as it is for AIDS or cancer whereby the government would would declare it a national disaster and be on the move to mobilise funds to do campaigns targeting to eradicate it.As of now we are yet to be there,but i beleive on this World Pulse  platform together we can make the difference.

I am humbled with my World Pulse Ambassador appointment.Giving up is out of context,i overcame it so are you.

 

 

 

 

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Jill Langhus
Mar 04
Mar 04

Hi Bettina,

Thanks for sharing some of your personal story with us. I totally agree that low esteem affects all areas of our lives and is crucial to joy, peace and fulfillment in our lives. I'm looking forward to hearing more about your confidence course that you are running for IWD.

Hope you're having a great day!

Bettina Amendi
Mar 05
Mar 05

You are welcome Jill,
I will keep you posted.
Good day.

Juliet Acom
Mar 05
Mar 05

Hi Bettina,
Congratulations on your new role as a world pulse ambassador!!!
Thanks for sharing your passion with us - Most of us prefer our animals ready to cook :(
I look forward to hearing about your course, wishing you all the best.

Regards

Bettina Amendi
Mar 05
Mar 05

Thank you Juliet for the complement.You are enlist for the lessons.
Regards,
Bettina

Maluma
Mar 05
Mar 05

I'm happy to learn some of your story. You have a strong voice and I'm glad you're here and we met!

Bettina Amendi
Mar 05
Mar 05

Thank you for the complement,you encouraged me.

Maluma
Mar 05
Mar 05

Can you please include me in updates about the course so I can join if my schedule allows?

Bettina Amendi
Mar 05
Mar 05

Yes please Maluma,you are welcome to do the program. You shall allocate your time by yourself within your busy schedule a minimum of 10minutes-20minutes.Do not hesitate to ask incase you have any questions.

Bettina Amendi
Mar 09
Mar 09

Check your inbox please.

Tumanjong Miranda
Mar 09
Mar 09

Dear Bettina,
This is a great story. Thanks for sharing such a personal experience with us.
I can't wait to get the updates about your course.
Much love!

Bettina Amendi
Mar 09
Mar 09

Thanks for the complement.Kindly check on all my posts,they are building blocks on the study.

Tumanjong Miranda
Mar 09
Mar 09

Great!!! :-)

Bettina Amendi
Mar 09
Mar 09

Kindly check your inbox.

Hello, Betina,

I consider it as a spiritual abuse when someone uses the Bible to control other people. I’m sorry you had to go through that. I glad that you’ve escaped. I experienced the same in the past.

It’s great that you are sharing with us a confidence course.

Thank you for sharing your story!

Karen

Bettina Amendi
Mar 10
Mar 10

Hi Karen,
I am happy to confess, i escaped that i may tell the story.
You are welcome to do the Self-Confidence course.
Regards,
Bettina

ARREY- ECHI
Mar 19
Mar 19

Hello Bettina,
Thank you for sharing this personal journey with us. I see you are the daring kind .

"The first step was to accept i can not change my past,secondly i had to forgive myself and thirdly to forgive others.I stopped the blame game and took responsibility of working on myself on the areas i had failed me".

These lines above are so true. Acceptance is always the first step forward to overcome any challenge.

Congrats on your ambassadorship.

Bettina Amendi
May 24
May 24

You right sister.