I'm Bianca from Malta. When I was 6 years old I was raped for the first time and as a result I felt like nowhere is safe in this world. My dad used to beat my mum up and since I depended on my dad for sustenance I felt like there was no way out of this living hell. These episodes caused me to have a lot of self-doubt as an adult. Fast forward to my 30's I found it hard to find a job and keep it, I had a line of jobs I'd been fired from. The main reason is an underlying belief that I'm not good enough and I don't have what it takes. Recently I was accepted for a new job. I feel settled in my job now, eager to make my contribution. Although I still carry the fears they don't stop me from doing my work in the world.
This story was submitted in response to The Future of Security is Women .