An Ultimatum for the Year 2017

blanch1981
Posted January 5, 2017 from Philippines
My 2016 New Year's Resolution
My 2016 New Year's Resolution (1/2)

Exactly on New Year’s Eve, I made an ultimatum for myself. I need to be harsh this time, most especially now that things are getting clearer what I really want for myself.

Despite my constant struggle of survival and self-healing, I am persistent in pushing and pulling myself towards a life goal. I draw a map to guide me in my journey. But most often, I regress and become vulnerable to develop self-pity and insecurities and failures.

The year 2016 was a year of self-discovery for me. I wrote on a paper last year my New Year’s Resolution and even posted it here in World Pulse. The list went on like:

  1. Read more
  2. Stress Less
  3. Detox weekly, enjoy life
  4. Take a trip
  5. More love, love more
  6. Save money
  7. Get a higher pay
  8. More productive
  9. Be selective
  10. Absolute healing
  11. _______ less

I was optimistic and manifested a positive outlook that life would be better. And I think I did well last year. The year started with a bang when I got an email from Stephanie Auxier on February 15, 2016 with an opening message:

Dear Blanche,

We are delighted to offer you a spot as a Leader in the Voices of Our Future Training Program!

I knew then life will be different this time.

I met women from the different countries which affect my mood and viewpoint as I went on my journey. I had extreme ups and downs and went a lot of emotional and psychological upheavals in the process. That kind of transition when one leg would be left behind while the other one carries the entire weight of the body. Although I admit that I did not achieve all the things I intend to achieve, that opportunity open my mind to a more daring and bolder step towards self-discovery.

That change in me was provoked when the campaign rounds during the Philippine election in May 2016 created a radical phenomenon putting a man who hailed from Mindanao, a region where I was born and raised, to the highest elected official in the country, the President. For the first time, someone from my place, a place that is almost forgotten and ignored and labeled as a war and poverty-stricken place, gets elected as a President.

I realized then, indeed, nothing is impossible. That occurrence only reminded me, that I too, can change the course of my own story. With faith, compassion, persistence and a clearer mind to do what needs to be done, everything is possible.

These realizations push me harder to think, what an ordinary person like me, could do more for myself and for my country. I realigned my way of thinking and more opportunities came in. One is a new job opportunity that I know would definitely create a more positive impact on me. More than that, it will also bring me back to the place where I grew up and gets educated—Davao City (the place where the Philippine president became the undefeated city official for more than two decades).

Two months before the year 2016 ended, I fulfilled my New Year’s Resolution to take a trip, become selective, be more productive, and get a higher pay. Amazingly, I had the chance to meet and greet different people from various people’s organization whose work are grounded in the grassroots. I travelled places in Mindanao whose stories I only read and heard on TV and newspaper. I was surrounded with workmates who are single mothers and individuals whose point of view on women are far more developed and progressive.

And I am finally home. Every day, I listen to different stories which inspired me to relive my passion. Exchange of ideas is more profound too. Ideas of change, of emancipation, and of transformations.

Yet I know that struggle and great challenges are yet hiding behind the things dear to me. Most especially, I know that I will be dealing again with the terror I have run away 11 years ago. But life is just like that. Taking a little step forward, one at a time. I know I am on the right path.

And with a renewed vigor and vitality, as well as the decision I made for the new environment, I know this will lead to a higher level of consciousness and action.

This story was submitted in response to New Year, New Beginning.

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WorldCare
Jan 05, 2017
Jan 05, 2017

Hello Blanch1981, I have read your story. You have set some very high goals for yourself, and already fulfilled some of them. I admire your life plans. Overcoming the pitfalls of life is not easy, so I wish you well as you continue to aim for the best in your life, and your best contributions to your community. It looks like someone else inspired you, and I'm sure you will inspire many others as time goes by.

JulieG
Jan 06, 2017
Jan 06, 2017

Dear Blanche,

I'm so moved by your post and from reading your most personal goals and dreams and also your assessment of your year and accomplishments.  I'm sure so many do the same, but to share them with us takes strength and courage.  I feel confident that your courage will continue to touch and inspire people in your community.   Just today I re-read a quote that inspired me a few years back.  From author Ruth Ozeki.  "You can not make a better world unless you can imagine it so, and the first step towards change depends on the imaginations ability to perform this radical act of faith.  In the end it is a tribute to the power of imagination."  Here is to your imagination in 2017!

My best wishes,

Julie

megbhor
Sep 25, 2017
Sep 25, 2017

Your courage is very encouraging.I understand most of the time it is not so easy to stick with a routine.It's true "Any man who reads too much and uses his own brain too little falls into lazy habits of thinking". Hence reading and implementation both should go parallel.This is OSHO ZEN saying ""Rebellion is individual action; it has nothing to do with the crowd. Rebellion has nothing to do with politics, power, violence. Rebellion has something to do with changing your consciousness, your silence, your being. It is a spiritual metamorphosis" 

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