The smile behind the pain.

blessings
Posted September 26, 2020 from Uganda

The quest for a home keeps calling,the best feeling is knowing you have a place you can go to any time. In my case I would sit and bargain whether board a bus or not .My stepfather always laments he has not built for girls and we are grown now he doesn't want us home.The matter became worse when I went back home and pregnant,I didn't go back to grow old I went back to find my way out but he didn't  see it that way ,time came I was too stressed because I was too broke i won that when i started making doughnuts where i sell to the community my life became earlier less stressful that was when my little angel joined me, giving birth through c section in the village is at GOD'S mercy because I had some complications but thank God I won that battle .After discharged from hospital came back home the first.word that came out of my stepdad.was why my baby in another woman's house I bleed inside I had no option,Mothers can be so loving and trust me I love mine so much but she also got tired of me at one month she started telling me to carry my baby and we go to the garden,gardening is not an issue the issue is I was going through a lot of pain I couldn't just sit despite the pain. I would put my baby on the back and make doughnuts so am able to buy her neccecities and also put food on the table sometimes other women from the community started.throwing words.at me because they were jealous of me ,I was just waiting for someone to ask me to teach them what I know,people loved the doughnuts they would follow me home they wouldsay''If you really have a home go to your home not another woman's home'' I soaked.by pillow in tears that night because it wasn't the first.time I heard.those.words .My sister  who followed me heard how the women were attacking me she came in to stoodby me but my dad thought she over reacted  by fighting back that was when I moved away from home and requested my cousin I stay at her place until have saved enough to rent but then the pain became intense I had to use what had.saved for rent to go for treatment in the city on caming back I was still planning to again start saving for rent then I received a message from her that where am staying she wants it.clean because she will be using it as a guest house for.her international friends as it goes.The people I have in my life are incredible people but they got tired of me,my mum checks on me since I left home but the beauty of all these is I ALWAYS FIND AWAY and no matter how hard it is now I get my daughter a home not by marriage or what but I will work twice as much am doing now because I have a vision. IT DOESN'T MATTER HOW MANY TIMES YOU FALL WHAT MATTERS IS HOW YOU GET UP.

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Nini Mappo
Sep 27
Sep 27

Dear Blessings,
I love the message in your story, the message of resilience to get up again and again regardless if how many times we fall. Well done, for rising again against so many odds. And it is really remarkable that you chose not to make yourself out as a victim of all the injustice you received from your family and village women. That is worth emulating.
I am sorry that you did not have sufficient healing time and care when your baby was born, so that you got complications later on. I hope that you have now healed completely, and can now focus on building your future and that of your daughter's.
Stay strong dear, you are a winner, and so will your daughter be.
sending love and sparkles :)

blessings
Sep 30
Sep 30

Thank you so much sister Nini,yes am fine now glory be to the lord.The pain is gone, am remaining with the smile that no one can take it away because am back on my feet.All the best my sister and keep safe.

Dear Blessings,

You are such an incredible woman to endure all the challenges you face. I know the pain of giving birth via c-section, dear, and in a month after surgery, that is still painful. The medical advice is not to do strenuous activities for at least six weeks, and that's a month and a half. I love your resilience, dear sister.

I know this is a hard phase in your life, taking care of your daughter while making ends meet. But you are tougher than your circumstance, and your resilience will bring you to a better life by God's grace. Keep it up, dear sister. I know you'll be able to have a quality life because no matter what, YOU ALWAYS FIND A WAY.

Please update us with your story. You're a good woman, you're a loving mother, and you can trample down poverty because you can make it so. I believe in you, and I am already proud of you. Stay strong and stay safe!

Thank you for inspiring us with your story.

blessings
6:37am
6:37am

Thank you so much sister Karen,I realise what I needed all this while is someone to talk to and am really glad I don't have only one person but a million,ready to listen and also help relieve my pain,am happy am in this family.Thank you my sister from another mother.