The irony of the day is very clear in front of me. Facing my computer screen deciding on which paper to answer first -- the one that highlights my desire to become a leader in World Pulse or a document detailing information as a proof of life.
The world is full of it - ironies I mean.
One day, I decided to challenge myself a little bit when I accepted an emergency post in Nepal knowing that I am more comfortable in secured post-conflict, post-emergency places since I started working in development. Last year I decided, well why not - for 2 months I'll experience how it is to be in "ground zero". The two months turned to five and I came back beaming with pride knowing that I survived it and realized it wasn't so bad, in fact it was not so much differnt from what I am used to do except maybe the pacing of when and how things are done.
Now I am embarking into another adventure accepting a post in the Middle East - how crazy is that? Well, actually it is a little mind bogling because I kept telling myself and some friends that I will not work in the region considering the volatility of the situation there but then again, my heart always tells me to go where you're needed rather than where I wanted.
I am pretty sure what I want to do and that I need to go to Gaza but I am not sure if I am ready. I already hear my inner voice telling me "you will not know until you get there", so yeah, soon I will be there and I will know how it feels to be with the people from the region and to see if I can be who I am expected myself to be more than what they expect of me.
I prayed for this, I feel that this would be a good experience, a chance to bring something of me to the people I will encounter working in Gaza and in the other parts of the region. I believe that I am not going there alone, you will be with me, rooting for me and my safety, my acceptance and my success but most of all I am going there with God.
So now I have to finish my proof of life ... is my CV not enough? Ha!