While I Was Away ...

coolasas
Posted May 12, 2018 from Philippines

How are you all?

I missed being in World Pulse. I was away and have not posted for over a year, and I want to convince myself that I  have good reasons why. 

When I returned to WP in 2014, I was out of work by choice. I finished a four-year development work overseas and decided I will not take another assignment until I am rested and maybe try to do something different. I returned to writing and revived my WP affiliation and was very active. 

Then I got called to help. I was sent to Nepal to help with the emergency response team of the organization that recruited me (www.hi.org) and found myself responding to people that were affected by the devastating earthquake and stationed in the middle of the country with very difficult internet connectivity. I still managed to connect when in Kathmandu. I posted few posts and even got to meet one member from there, but she has to leave because he scholarship grant was approved.  Eventually, I moved to another emergency mission in Gaza, in the Occupied Palestinian Territories. I tried hard, very hard to continue getting involved listening and encouraging other women online. I even took a challenge, but in the end because of my location and the complexity of my situation - security wise and more, I faltered in attending meetings and updating my profile. In short, I become less and less active.

I made two posts in January of 2017, and that was it. I cannot even look at my personal blog sites when I moved to Turkey. I immediately got thrown into work because they had been waiting for me for over three months. The day after I arrived, I boarded a plane to the south of the country and got the feel of the situation. It was a hard situation, all of the foreigners working for the Syrian refugees were monitored and unlucky organizations were closed and expatriates were deported. I cannot talk about what I do, let alone talk about people I work for, can't even say exactly where I am working in my public page. But we are doing good work, very important for the most vulnerable people. I had seen and heard many stories, they remain in my head. At the end of each day, I didn't have the energy to put them in writing. 

Because of increasing tension in the country, my organization moved out and decided to work remotely. I moved to Tunisia and barely a month there in January this year I had an accident. I broke my left leg and I have to be medically evacuated after I was cleared and stable to travel for 24 hours to the Philippines. Now I am home for 4-months, recovering. I wrote about my experience being disabled on my blog and believe me working in the sector for over two decades did not prepare me for the challenges I met being one myself. It was unreal. 

I will tell you all about my disability journey, later on, it was like a roller coaster ride. For the meantime, now that I found the motivation again to write, I want to slowly reinsert myself in your life. Reading the stories, your adventures, made me miss reading stories of my friends. I hope to catch up and see what I can do again now that I found my voice back after a little set back in my life. 

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Kristine Yakhama
May 12, 2018
May 12, 2018

Quick recovery and welcome back

coolasas
May 12, 2018
May 12, 2018

Thank you very much for the well wishes

QueenVirtuous
May 12, 2018
May 12, 2018

Darling Coolasas,

Of a truth, you have been through some really difficult times! I personally know what it's like to have to work in a volatile situation such as you have described. Believe me, I do.

I consider you a very brave person with a really large heart to have ventured into places like that in order to do your work. To be daily surrounded by human suffering and not flinch from it or smother the voice of empathy is certainly commendable by all means and is indeed a trait worthy of emulation.

Please, don't feel bad about not finding the energy yet to put your experiences and the true stories of the vulnerable people around you in writing. It takes a lot of energy to feel empathy, to connect with the sufferings of others, let alone narrate same to others. It happens sometimes, that we who are empaths need encouragement ourselves. I too have been offline for quite a while due to injuries sustained during a program organized for women. Look out for my story, coming soon. You're not alone in this journey.

And that's why we are here for you, sister. To lift your spirits when you feel overwhelmed. We are so happy to hear from you again. So happy. We have you back alive, and that's more than enough to be grateful for.

I'm so sorry about your accident. I wish you a speedy recovery, both of mind and body. I'm sending you hugs and kisses, just as the doctor ordered.

Once again, welcome back. I am for one looking forward to reading your stories. But please, do take the time to recover fully. Praying for you.

coolasas
May 12, 2018
May 12, 2018

Your comments very heart warming. I felt very welcome. I do the best I could when I know I have something to give in a situation and knowing I was able to help is reward that is priceless.
I will try to keep up with my writing to get my stories out.
Take care too.

QueenVirtuous
May 12, 2018
May 12, 2018

I will. Thank you for coming back here to us.

Jill Langhus
May 13, 2018
May 13, 2018

Thank you, Queen Virtuous, for coming back to us as well:) Your feedback and commentary are awesome, and we value your presence here!

QueenVirtuous
May 14, 2018
May 14, 2018

Darling Jill, it's always a pleasure to hear from you. And it's good to be back here as well. Let's do this together.

Jill Langhus
May 14, 2018
May 14, 2018

:-) Sounds like a plan!

QueenVirtuous
May 14, 2018
May 14, 2018

;-) Yyyyyep, you bet!

Olutosin
May 12, 2018
May 12, 2018

Welcome dear sister, your work is very important and appreciated. Thanks for what you do for humanity, from Syria to Turkey to Africa, you are amazing. I can't wait to read your stories.
So sorry about the accident, I wish you quick recovery.

coolasas
May 14, 2018
May 14, 2018

Thanks for the welcome.
I try to contribute the best I can, not to waste God's gift I guess.
I look forward to writing more myself now that I am over the worst period of recovery from my accident.

Jill Langhus
May 13, 2018
May 13, 2018

Hi Coolasas. Good to have you back:-) I hope you are doing/feeling better now from your accident? That's great that you are able to help all those people in emergency situations. I hope you have been able to replenish your cup, and not be overwhelmed and worn out by all of it?!

coolasas
May 14, 2018
May 14, 2018

Thank you for the well wishes.

Been resting for a while now, the worst of the accident and recovery behind me just looking forward to fully recovering and returning to what I love doing - traveling but for now will see what I can do with writing my stories :)

Jill Langhus
May 14, 2018
May 14, 2018

You're welcome:) Oh, good. Yes, you must be really passionate about what you do. You are so driven. Looking forward to seeing more stories from you.

priscillia
May 15, 2018
May 15, 2018

You are welcome back.i wish u a quick recovery.

coolasas
May 15, 2018
May 15, 2018

Thank you for the Well wishes.

Pertulla Ezigha Ketcha
Nov 17, 2018
Nov 17, 2018

Hello Dear,
Wow you have done a lot for humanity. Courage and get well soon. I can't wait to read you again