The thing I am most afraid of is losing the people who have been part of my life for so many years. Since change is inevitable, I realize that growth means winning an extra level of life. It means to survive a new-dangled journey and simply move forward.
People and the environment shape you to become what you are now. They were the reasons why you became vulnerable or stronger, to become rebel or open, and influence other personalities for no reason would make you?
I am a young adult who has experienced desperate things in life and believe to have survived it. When I was younger, I was hallowed to have two different families. I used to stay with my adopted family most of the time because my parents were too busy to meet our needs. It was hard to think about this set up and the downside of this, I became aloof to my siblings; we never had this strong bond when I was a little kid. It was sad to hear common stories they have together, and I have none to share. I do not have a story to tell how we connect as a family. Whenever we go for a walk, people would usually inquire my mom or dad, "who am I" and I saw how they reacted to know I am the youngest one because we do not have similarities at all. Our neighborhood would frequently call me “ampon”, it means adopted child. Who would never think about it; I have tan skin compared to my sisters and look like a random ranch boy before, I am way uglier than you could ever imagine. These simple gestures from casual people built up the personal insecurities I have felt for several years. I felt quite a lot of arrows just pierced directly into my heart and later on the feelings of sadness consumed my compassion and I became distant and cold.
I promised myself I would prove my worth to anyone who has caused me pain and treated me less than I deserve. This is how the public have shaped me. I worked so hard for them to know me, I studied hard and harnessed my talent and I used it to overcome my insecurities and flaws. However, things along the way were not that easy for a woman like me, I was harassed, belittled, humiliated, bullied, betrayed and misjudged and these caused me heartaches. I died as I lost my sanity for quite a lot of times. I distant myself even more and started to enclose anxiety on a daily basis. Another downfall with which for I thought I could not handle. Even though, I hardly strive embarking murky roads and struggled from false accusations, I fought hard and I survived. This gave me strength carry out advocacy, to fight for – women! I promised to bring up to date the infuriating act of abusers! I stepped out to reach other advocates and be the voice of those who can’t. I pledge to unfurl the blindfold of those who were blinded by fears.
Today, I am moving forward stronger and bolder and perceive the world in a more optimistic way. It means I will always think of opportunities to every situation I am in, for as long as I’m prepared to take risks and ready for failure, I can make great things and as I continue to learn more about life, this will not be the end of the great story I will survive.