I SAW IT COMING
Aug 23, 2021
Story
From the beginning, it was there or so I thought
Assumed so much that I was the messiah
Was so certain I would change you
And so I set sail
It kept coming back or was this a mind game
Still, I told myself what if I was mum
Praying never seized, advises followed suit
And so I kept still
Fresh injuries met older sore
Confidence and my pride suddenly went amiss
Children, families, and everyone inactions held me bound
and still, I wouldn't budge
Countless times I died in my mind
like a living corpse I walked amongst men
few sane thoughts came once a while
And so I lost touch
Smiling through it all and acting like it was well
fighting the need to open up to those who could help
making up lies to keep up with the peers
and still, I was fixed
The few good memories kept holding me bound
you walked away, still, I pursued
you broke what's left and showed me my compete
and so an eye opened
The room was so dark and looked like death
all I could feel was a sudden rush of fear
your threats kept ringing in my ears even though I turned away
and so I opened a second
The shades were down and were hard to see
for my life I ran, for my kids, I ran
life was all that matters after all
and so I left
Triumph is beautiful when the pulse is slow
for the love of me, for the love of mine
sanity is here
and so am free