From A Sisrter To A Brother

I wonder whether you felt this was going to happen or not. I wonder what you were thinking at that very moment. I wonder why it had to be you. This unexpected incident made me numb. I could never think that someone from my family can leave us like the way you did.
I was always afraid of two of my cousins from my childhood; not only me but also my other siblings as well. And one of them was you. We used avoid you when we saw you on roads. We used to try not to talk to you much. We made so much fun with our other elder brothers, but no one ever dared to make fun with you. No one ever asked you to take to village fair or music concert.
But still you were our elder brother: our lovely, handsome, calm, helpful, and affectionate brother.
We never dared let you know that we love you so much, and we are going to miss you so much.
This is to you my brother. This is to you who left us before 4 hours ago. May your soul rest is peace.