WITH FAITH I AM GOING TO MAKE IT

I am a young motswana woman who grew up in a rural area..i started my primary school there in a rural area ..with a single parent raising us in a family of three my mum was unemployed sometimes we went to bed with empty stomach..we depended on my grandfather's penssion for a leaving ,sometimes i went to school bare footed with a uniform with some patches on it .regadless of being poor i passed my primary school exams with grade B (which i still belive if i dd not have any social problems could have done better) i went to a secondary school we struggled at home sometimes i brought my younger brother some food to eat from my lunch meals at schools, during this time our mother found a job as a bar lady at the town she left us with her elder sister who mistreated us she made us fetch water from very far public pipes , made me to cook for the whole family while i was from the school, my mother sent money for food and for some nesceties ,when i asked hersome money as i was in some few school subject clubs she will say that her chil;dren have never bothered her about attending those unnesecery things why shoudnt i ignore that too.. i ended up withdrawing from the school fairs and clubs, to my surprise one day my mother bought me a school skirt and sent it to the village ..when i fitted it she said i shud give it to her younger daughter so that she wears it in musical competions as it does not fit me well (but the skirt was fine)days passed by i wrote my Junior school exams and got grade B , then went to high school and ended up getting 37 points.With any advice i applied to Universities and College my fear was to stay home doing nothing i choose any couse as long as i geat sponsorship i did the course i didnt like my passion was to become a teacher my dreams failed i have got an asociate Digree in Sound Technology but i dont like it i am not even using it.But i know that is not end of the world now i am still saving money from small piece jobs i get so that i do long distance teaching courses