The Day Everything Became Impossible

Hamza Yassin
Posted June 26, 2019 from Somalia

Can a human being be a holder of Master’s degree or even PhD?  How it’s possible? I believe it is impossible! I still don’t understand what Postgraduate schools offer?  My biggest goal I ever set in my school days was to become Master or PhD holder. I used to say that successful people are relentless goal setters who never give up. I worked hard and I hoped my dream would come true one day. But that dream suddenly came to an end.

It was two years ago and I was junior Art student at a university in Somalia. At that time we were taking Research Methodology course. Our lecturer ordered us to write research proposal as groups. Each contained two-three students since the number of students was more and the time was very limited. My group selected me the group leader. All groups started to pick up some topics and show the teacher; we also did. After amendment, he told us to do the proposal. He assigned the deadline and promised supervision. The work was immediately started.

Every group wanted to surpass others. Also there was a fierce competition between the fast students. All groups, except ours, just downloaded written proposals, renamed and submitted. My colleagues suggested doing the same, but I opposed and told them that cheating would never give us anything. Then we took the title approved by the teacher, wrote research objectives, questions, literature review, questionnaires and whatever we could to avoid cheating and test our ability. We took our work to be supervised by the lecturer before the deadline many times, but we never saw him. “He is busy. He went to city X. He doesn’t work at this time, come back tomorrow.” Those were the answers when we tried to meet him in his office.  Lastly we submitted our original work. Because of lack of supervision, it became quite shallow but meaningful.

One day, one of my classmates told me that the course result had been released. I and the rest of my group were willing that cheaters would earn zero or at least something not good as ours. Personally I thought that I would defeat my rivals for the scholarship of the school. But things went another way. He gave us poor grade while others got 100% or 90%. I shocked and sighed deeply; moreover, the rest of my team yelled at me saying. “Poor leader!  Why did you reject to download a written one? Didn’t we give you an advice? Look at our competitors”. I had nothing to say as I was the source of their problem.

I and another student went to the teacher and asked the matter. “You didn’t write good proposal and even you deserved smaller marks. Said the teacher. “Isn’t clear that we wrote own but others copied from outside?” we asked. We had a little more argument. Finally he said, “I don’t care whether it was original. I just graded what is written on the books”. What a disappointment! I asked my friends to forgive me.

Since ever then, when I hear words like research proposal, thesis, report, I see them something impossible to do. I used to dream to be PhD holder but I think I was wrong at that time.Whenever a friend or a family member asks me to go to Post Graduate school, I simply say “there is thesis” because I don’t think I can do.

By Hamza Yassin

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Oluwatoyin Olabisi
Jun 26
Jun 26

AWESOME, Never stop THINKING BIG

Hamza Yassin
Jun 30
Jun 30

thanks

Jill Langhus
Jun 26
Jun 26

Hi Hamza,

Welcome to World Pulse:-) Thanks for sharing your challenging project experience. I agree with Oluwatoyin. You can't give up on your dreams because of one bad experience, and one bad role model. You know in your heart that you were right. Just because the "cheaters" got a better grades doesn't mean that they won. To me it's a similar experience that I often witnessed at various work settings that I've been at, to see various people being promoted or seen as a favorable employee because they are saying and doing exactly what the boss wants them to. I always had to grapple with this, too, as you did. Two wrongs never make a right. It's called integrity. Always continue taking the moral high ground. You will be the confident one at the end of the day, and proud of your achievements, too, knowing that you did the right thing!

Let us know what your next step is toward your goal and set your intention toward aligning with colleagues and professors that mirror your morals, and see what you find!

Hope you have a great day!

Hamza Yassin
Jun 30
Jun 30

Thank you so much and I appreciated your inspirational comment.

Jill Langhus
Jun 30
Jun 30

You're welcome:-) Please keep us posted on your progress toward your goal.

Beth Lacey
Jun 27
Jun 27

Yes- you can do it!

Hamza Yassin
Jun 30
Jun 30

i am going to do.

Tamarack Verrall
Jun 28
Jun 28

Hi Hamza,
I add my support to what others have said. You walk with integrity and have been through what happens too often - fake work getting the free pass and real work being unsupported and unrecognized. As Jill said, you are the real winner here. Don't give up. Your integrity will carry you far. Welcome to World Pulse. As a man you will no doubt meet resistance outside being part of this movement to undo harmful practices toward women and girls. But here you will find support and also other men who have the integrity that you carry.

Hamza Yassin
Jun 30
Jun 30

Thanks Verral I'm always with women and girls.

Moumin Saed
Jun 29
Jun 29

My Dear friend Hamse Yazin. I know that you are hardworker and Academic Man.
So never give up.

Hamza Yassin
Jun 30
Jun 30

Mumin always legend thanks

Rodgers
Jul 03
Jul 03

If i may say, all the great people we know never got the recognition to start with. it never hindered their success and motivation to aim at even more greater heights. In the same spirit, more often than not, you will have rivalry, opposition, discouragement at a certain point in time but that should never stop you from doing the right thing and pursuing integrity than shortcuts to dishonesty. It is endurance, perseverance and hard work that will keep you going. #don't settle for less

Hello, Hamza,

Congratulations for keeping your integrity intact!

It’s not entirely your fault that you for a poor grade, your adviser wasn’t there to guide you in the first place.

I’m sorry if that experience discouraged you to pursue higher education. But there is no harm in trying again, right? Who knows this time you will have a thesis adviser who’s going to mentor you well.

Thank you for sharing. Life is unfair sometimes, but an honest man will go places. I know you will!