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Hawwah
Posted February 4, 2020 from Nigeria
The WIN
The WIN (1/1)

On the last day of the 10 days of activism against gender violence, I sat down and poured my heart out on my keyboard words that seek to describe the pain I feel for myself, other women around me and all over the world.

There was a time I actually believed that due to its closed-mindedness and conservatism, it is only women from my society and community that suffer the injustices I have seen, witnessed and experienced. 

But now that I am out here, in a society other than mine, I have come to realize that women all over the world, face the same challenges, only in different degrees.

I cast my mind back, and remember all my teen and adult life, trying to help every woman around me, protect them, and even fight others for them including their mothers; fighting them because of their Girls. I was almost always running around everyone and everywhere like a headless chicken, telling people how they should and should not treat women and Girls. 

And so, on December 10th, 2019, with a heart that is laden with so much grief and angst at a system that demonizes, diminishes, dehumanizes and abuse the most important of all creation,  I wrote about how I feel every woman's pain. 

For as far as I can remember, I have always written. But even though my writings have been stolen, pirated, copyrighted and sold by others in the past, I have never won anything from them until now. But I never stopped, because my motivation for writing was to be a voice for myself and others.  I continued to write, and just when I least expected it, I won, - or rather my poem #Istandwithher won $100 on world pulse.

Excited does not describe how I felt. It was a conflict of emotions -  joy, sadness, motivation, inspiration, exhilaration and belonging. When I collected the money, hot tears stung my eyes, because, for the first time in my writing career, I feel that not only have I finally found an audience for my message, but a place where I belong and matter.

My initial plan for the prize money of $100 was to fund the little scholarships that I fund. But, a very big but. 

I need it too. I am studying in a foreign country without support. 

So, my beloved sisters, is there any fault if I fund myself with the win?

Will appreciate your thoughts.

In love and sisterhood,

 

Hawwah

 

 

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Hello, dear Hawwah,

Oh, I'm sorry that your written works in the past have been copied, plagiarized, and stolen. I could somewhat identify with that.

Congratulations again on winning the Story Award! You are a good writer, dear. I'm glad you feel affirmed and validated on this recognition.

Dear sister, use the money for yourself. It is your reward. Celebrate your hard work and effort. You know in your heart that you could share this with all, but you need it, too. Prioritize yourself for now because when you're done with your study, you can definitely help more.

Hope that helps. Have a great day!

Hawwah
Feb 07
Feb 07

Dear Karen,
Thank you for your love and support.
I shall heed your advice and counsel aside that I really do need the support.
In love in sisterhood,
Hawwah

You're welcome, dear. Hope it helps! You could try to search if there are offers for scholarships on the Resources Page, dear. Have a great day! Love and hugs!

Anita Shrestha
Feb 05
Feb 05

Dear Sis]
Dont worry. Be happy at least you did then they steal otherwise who steal if you were in silience. Be happy dear

Hawwah
Feb 07
Feb 07

Dear Anita,
You are right. If I had let that stop me, I would not have grown to this level.
The silence was never an option for me and will never be.
Thank you.

Beth Lacey
Feb 06
Feb 06

Hawwah, you do fit and you do belong. Take care of yourself first. If you don't, you won't be able to really help others

Hawwah
Feb 07
Feb 07

Dear Beth,
You are right, I must help myself first.
I guess in the past, I had always drawn from an empty cup, giving out to others when I actually had nothing give.
Which always left me drained and empty.
Now, I have to fill my cup first.
Thank you.

lizzymark
Feb 06
Feb 06

Hi Hawwah, I rejoice with you over your win,and sorry about your work that had been stolen before,a song writer says "don't give up,its not over but when you give up then its over" and you did not,just then it paid off. My dear use it,Na your Sweat. It will be part of your life's testimony. Hope you enjoy it well dear.

Hawwah
Feb 07
Feb 07

Dear Lizzymark,
Thank you for your feedback, I appreciate greatly.
And heed the advice.

Akshaya9
Feb 06
Feb 06

Hi Hawwah,
Sorry to hear that your written works have been copyright and stolen in the past. Congratulations on winning the Story Award dear.

You use your money and celebrate for the hard work dear.

Best Regards.

Hawwah
Feb 07
Feb 07

Dear Akshaya,
Thank you very much for being there my sister.

Akshaya9
Feb 11
Feb 11

Your welcome dear

Elizabeth Ziro
Feb 07
Feb 07

Hallo Hawwah,
Wow! many times the same happens to me. .
You introduce something and then you are not even recognized or awarded while someone else will take your idea and receive honors and publicity, this has really motivated me. I believe one time one day it will also pay. Congrats on winning the Story Award

Hawwah
Feb 07
Feb 07

Dear Elizbeth,
Do not let that stop you, dear. Write, create and innovate.
I have at one-time had my documentary proposal stolen. My attention was drawn to the TV and Radio broadcast. It was my project word for word, even the scripting.
All those years, what motivated and kept me going all those years was the belief and confidence in my ability to continue to write, create and innovate. I kept telling myself, if I could write/create/innovate this idea, I can create more. And I always did.
I believe our brains are floodgates of ideas. If you stop creating, it stops flowing. But it will continue to flow as long as you continue to create.
Do not be deterred. Keep the floodgate open. Someday soon, it will pay.

Fanka
Feb 07
Feb 07

congratulations

Hawwah
Feb 07
Feb 07

Thank you Fanka

Metiege Noel Eve
Feb 07
Feb 07

No sister your education will rather give you more opportunities to develop and be able to earn more to be able to reach out in terms of finance and voice to the many women you are and will love to help. So sister I will advice you to go ahead and fund your education. GOD BLESS YOU.

Hawwah
Feb 07
Feb 07

Thank you very much Mietge.
God bless you too.

Felicitas Wung
Feb 08
Feb 08

Hello Hawwah,
Sorry to know that people have been stealing your work and publishing without your concern.
Congrats on your award.