Pain

Helen 8629
Posted December 1, 2020 from Nigeria

Everyone left only pain stayed .

I laugh when iam in pain 

I cry without tears and it's painful

I feel so lonely and unloved .

Up all night thinking

Songs express my feelings .

Iam tired of pretending

Pain is path of growing 

No matter what I'm here .

Who will hear me ?

My heart is very tired and sad

Hug me iam mentally tired

But who will stay at my worst ?

I pray things get better .

Iam too young for this anxiety

Iam hurting but I don't show it .

A lot of stress for one person 

I don't know if iam okay or not .

Can someone please hug me ?

I just want to be fine always

Iam full of pain .

Being sad is so exhausting.

Hug me please , I need that .

Iam sad but I smile that's life .

I keep too much inside. 

Craving for the tightest hugs.

It's helpless but iam still hoping 

I need unlimited hugs .

Iam so lost please hug me 

Hug me please ...........

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jomarieb.earth
Dec 01, 2020
Dec 01, 2020

Hey Helen,
I have absolutely been where you are. Many years ago, but I will never forget. It was a turning point for me. I realized that the greatest hug in life that you will ever receive is from yourself. No one was born attached to you except your mother. And she was detached after you arrived. No one can always be available to fill that role. So don't invest in false securities. You are your best friend when you decide you are available to love yourself. If you believe in God, thank God for giving you the most wonderful person in the mirror. She is a goddess and the most awesome friend that you will ever have. If you allow her to be. She will feed, shelter, dress, protect, take care of, nurture, laugh, dance, play, teach you, learn from you and smile at you, just to name a few things that she will do. She has always been there for you, and she will always be there for you. She will wipe your tears and keep all of your secrets. She will give you unlimited hugs for the rest of your life. Give her a chance. Just saying.
Welcome to this space and glad you are here.
Massive hugs...JoMarie

RoseConcrete
Dec 01, 2020
Dec 01, 2020

Lovely comment God Bless

Nini Mappo
Dec 01, 2020
Dec 01, 2020

Beautifully said big sis JoMarie :-) I love the metaphors interwoven in the wisdom!

Helen 8629
Dec 01, 2020
Dec 01, 2020

Thank you Miss Earth .

RoseConcrete
Dec 01, 2020
Dec 01, 2020

Helen you are not alone Queen . May God Be with you As he is always

Helen 8629
Dec 01, 2020
Dec 01, 2020

Thank you Miss Rose . I appreciate .

Nini Mappo
Dec 01, 2020
Dec 01, 2020

Hello Hellen,
Welcome to World Pulse. It is good that you can empty your heavy heart on these pages. Your sisters are listening :)
How are you today? Are you in a safe place?
I'm sorry that everyone left. I found myself wondering whether they left and that brought the pain, or they brought the pain even when they were present. (I like poems, because they make me think, and I like to think).
Either way, I am sorry to hear that you feel stuck in that pain. I hear you, and I empathize. I could send you a virtual hug but I don't think that will help. Perhaps the significance of hugs is someone who'll stay, be present, accessible, available, loving, caring, compassionate, comforting, unjudgmental, and always ready to help. I am not sure such one person exists, but a community, like World Pulse, can be part of that presence and comfort.

The depth of pain expressed in your poem seems to be up to an external entity to help alleviate. Of course, the poem may be or may not be about yourself....that's another thing about poems! But if it is about yourself, have you thought of starting with yourself?
One of my greatest quote of all time is from a song and says 'Freedom is sometimes simply another perspective away'. Because everything a hug means can start from your heart with a change of perspective. You can actually hug yourself so tight that you dissolve all the pain and empower you enough to reach out to others who may also be hurting.

I know loneliness is a hard road to travel. But we always have the world, and we can find our place in it and belong, until we find someone or some people to whom or with whom to belong.
There is a saying; "Embrace yourself". I hope that you can do so while you wait for hugs, and if no hugs come, I pray that embracing yourself brings enough comfort to dissolve the pain and give you wings.
I wish I could send you a real hug. But in my heart and with these words I send you hugs, and sparkles to get you started :-)
If you need someone to talk, we are always ready to listen.

Love and care in sisterhood,
Nini

Helen 8629
Dec 01, 2020
Dec 01, 2020

Thank you Nini.

Rose Marie Johnson
Dec 02, 2020
Dec 02, 2020

May the powers that created us hold you in love and light day and night. May the powers that be bless your path and give you abundance, prosperity, beautiful authentic people to uplift and inspire you while we walk this journey of life. I taught parenting classes a while ago and the first lesson was "Choices" give two choices for a child to make that you can be okay with it diffuses the conflict of independence. For myself as well, in difficult times I give myself two choices, then two choices and again until I have reached the other side of what I am struggling with. Be well
Rose

Helen 8629
Dec 03, 2020
Dec 03, 2020

I love you Miss Rose .
Thank you for your kind words.
Iam grateful . Thanks

MaryannR
Dec 08, 2020
Dec 08, 2020

Send hugs from San Francisco. It's a hard time for a lot of us. Believe in yourself. You are gold.

Helen 8629
Dec 08, 2020
Dec 08, 2020

Thank you my love .