Being Built By God

Imari
Posted November 8, 2020 from United States

Growing up I never had to want for anything material wise. I always had food to eat, and a place to sleep . Though I always was taking care of there were other things in my life I lacked and things I struggled with. To keep this short I will say that I never felt good enough, I needed support that was unavailable and endured certain things that I should not have, and seen things I shouldn’t have that traumatized me. I had outlets to help me like dance and being creative but sometimes that wasn’t enough because I didn’t have friends or anyone that I could talk to about what I was really feeling. What I was feeling was eating me up, day and night for years but The people I was around didn’t really support me emotionally at all, they called me dramatic and told me to shut up. I wasn’t around many affectionate ppl, but I am one who was and is really In tune with my feelings. Eventually I turned to boys, drugs , and partying to get my mind off of what I was missing inside, I was trying to fill avoid . I always felt small, unwanted, ignored and unimportant but that all changed one day. One day I was in my dorm room in college and I just dropped on my knees and cried out to God for help. This was one of those cries where you Just have had it and there is no more strength inside. Those ugly cries lol , but I had never felt that much love in my life, His presence was so strong and the atmosphere so ..light. I have always believed in God but this was the day as a young adult I actually fully Gave my life over to the lord. The lord has been taking me through a healing process like no other and purged me of so much , I have never Been loved like this in my life. He has strengthened me, and built me up. He had taught me how to forgive and let go and how to love myself despite what others say , or think. To only care about what he says and how to overcome my fears and other hinderances. I would say more but it would be too long and the point is God has changed me inside and out and taught me how to love myself and that’s something I’ve never done before

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Tamarack Verrall
Nov 08
Nov 08

Dear Imari,
Spirituality in so many of its forms are powerfully life changing, as you describe here, discovering through your own call for spiritual help, and for what faith can bring. How great that you have discovered your own beautiful spirit and are able to love yourself. May all you dream of doing, become possible.

Imari
Nov 08
Nov 08

Thankyou soo much. I have so much to share and I am new here. I’m not quite sure exactly why God has me here but I did it out of obedience

valem
Nov 08
Nov 08

Dear Imara,
Congratulations on crossing over from a situation that was not friendly to you.Do not regret your old life you have become new and now you have learned the power of forgiveness , Continue to build a good relationship with God the Father tells us to go before Him and talk to Him when we fall into sin and you asked for true repentance and He answered because He loves us. if we want to see Jesus Christ in everything we do our responsibility is to keep God's commandments to love Jesus so that God will love us too.

Imari
Nov 08
Nov 08

Amen to that

maeann
Nov 09
Nov 09

Welcome to World Pulse Imari :) Your story is your power.

Thank you for sharing how you felt and what you have experienced.

Loving ourselves is the best way to restore our being. Once we love and care ourselves then we can care for others.

Andrace
Nov 09
Nov 09

Hi Imari,
A warm welcome to World Pulse, your new family.....Yaaaaayyyyyyy! Congratulations on your first post too. Thank you for sharing your personal story.

You are wonderfully and fearfully created. You are enough. Thankfully, you affirmed that when you wrote "God has changed me inside and out and taught me how to love myself." That is an experience we should all have.

I join my sisters, Maama Tam, Valem and Maeann to applaud you for raising your voice. Keep writing and shining, Sis.

Love and hugs,
E. J.

Nini Mappo
Nov 10
Nov 10

Hello Imari,
Welcome to World Pulse. Yours is such a heart-warming account of God's goodness and mercy over your life. Praise to the One who can turn mess into masterpiece, an orphan into a crowned princess and wrap a desolate one in an eternal warm embrace. You are now home, always. How beautiful!

Prozoe
Nov 13
Nov 13

Hi Imari

I am so happy for you and your awakening into "who you are of". To acknowledge one's origin brings one closer to one's life's purpose. You are brave for sharing pieces of you with us, and we are honored to have you open up to us about the beauty of your discovery. Thank you for sharing

Welcome to the community of World Pulse, looking forward to hearing more about your divine encounters with a grace giver like no other.

#BigLove

Shirin Dalaki
Nov 13
Nov 13

Dear Imari, you exist because God loves you and you are a gift from God, unique in your own way. Welcome to World Pulse and our strong sisterhood.

Hello, Imari,

Welcome to World Pulse, dear sister! Thank you for sharing your testimony with us. It's a similar story with my husband who has been agnostic most of his life, and until he had the same encounter. His life was changed after that.

Thank you for sharing your truth. Looking forward to reading more from you! Welcome again to this growing sisterhood.