Introvert yet outspoken

Jap Mouki Christelle Alexandra
Posted October 14, 2019 from Cameroon

My parents named me Jap Mouki Christelle Alexandra. It's a combination of my great grand mother's name and inspiration from my mother . I am second child in a family of 3 and the second girl. I was born in a small community Health center in my mother's village with very little equipments. My grand mother was a nurse in that community Health center and she did a lot of work even after her retirement. She was the only state registered nurse in her village and some neighboring villages. She built a room with mud blocks very close to her kitchen so she could attend to all those who came for health reasons. The distance from the village to the main town Ebolowa was long and the roads were bad. There were specific days that you could have a car to travel to Ebolowa. People would come with injuries from the farm and from playing football, those who were sick, pregnant women etc. I loved to be in the village during holidays because I would help my grandmother and act like a mini nurse with gloves and assist her. She taught me so much and my zeal kept me going. She will let me take care of small injuries and direct me how to do it. Imagine the joy and fulfillment in me .I vowed to be a nurse . I am starting my nursing studies next year .

Growing up wasn't that rosy with mum and dad pouring out love on me and me getting what I want . At the age of 3, I had to live with family friends and family members because my mum had to finish her education. I had to go through a lot of emotional and physical violence and my only comfort was when I will go to my mini nursing during summer holidays. This shaped me to be an introvert and not know what parent's love is like. I was the child who grew up and will always stay restricted because I didn't belong to the family I lived with. Even when I finally went back to my parents 9 years later, I was still living with fear and restrictions because I grew up that way. Fear traumatized me and talking to someone was my greatest fear. I found comfort within myself.

Having the desire to work as a nurse, to reach out to people and to help young girls pushed me to be outspoken. Wasn't an easy ride, I am still working on myself . The prove is I am telling my story now .

Now I can talk to young girls, empower them to be who they want to be, encourage them to come out of their shelves and shine . .

i am still on a ride to my dream but talking and encouraging others has liberated me. 

You can call me Jap because you are family to me now . This is my story

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This story was submitted in response to The Real Me.

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maeann
Oct 15
Oct 15

Hi Jap,

Thank you for sharing.

The life you've experienced made you a person of courage. Continue to reach that dream and keep moving on towards your heart's desire.

Thank you Maeann

Oct 18
Oct 18
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Hello, Jap,

It must be a wonderful experience to look up to your grandma as a nurse. I’m glad you also become one.

It must be very traumatic for you as a girl to feel neglected and abused by your parents. I can somehow relate since I didn’t speak much as a child earning me a Most Behaved reward from kinder to grade five.haha. My teachers thought I was behaved coz I didn’t speak.

I’m happy you are now empowering girls in your community. You must have already healed those wounded parts of yours.

Thank you for sharing your story!

Thank you Karen,
Your grade 5 award is interesting hahahahha.. Yes most of the wounded parts have been healed.

You're welcome, dear Jap. Yes, haha. That's great to know. :)

Sister Zeph
Oct 16
Oct 16

I am sorry to hear that your childhood was not so happy. I am sure your mother was not happy to leave you alone, but she had to because she was struggling to give you a good future. but thank you very much for sharing your experience so that girls can be empowered and can learn what to do in your situation

Thank you sis Zeph

Jill Langhus
Oct 16
Oct 16

Hi Jap,

How are you doing, dear? Thanks for sharing your vulnerable story. I hear you! I totally get it. I'm still working on being more outspoken, but I would also consider myself more of an introvert anyway. Are you already a nurse? You will, and most likely are already, inspiring and empowering so many girls and women to pursue their dreams and to be outspoken. I have faith that you will get where you want to go and that you will fulfill your dreams:-)

We sisters at World Pulse have your back! XX

Hi Jill,
Thank you for reaching out. Still working on being a nurse and I definitely will be . Not for the money (which of course has a very low payment in my country) but for the fulfillment I derive. Blessed day Jill

Jill Langhus
Oct 19
Oct 19

Hello Dear:-)

You're very welcome! Okay. I wasn't sure. Yes, you will:-)

You, too, dear!

XX

Anita Shrestha
Oct 16
Oct 16

Dear
Thank you for sharing

Thank you Anita

Dr Jackie
Oct 18
Oct 18

Hi Jap,
I am glad you finally signed up!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know what you are doing and what you will do for the young women in Cameroon! Let's keep doing what we do. Thanks for sharing your story, now I understand why you have always told me u want to read nursing......!! Go for it.

Thank you Dr Jacky for hooking me up. I find this community inspiring. There is a lot that has to be done and I know that we will do a lot . Blessed day sweety

Carol-Alyce
Oct 18
Oct 18

Thank you for sharing. Believe in yourself. It is in you to achieve your dreams.

Thank you Carol

Spiritedsoul
Oct 19
Oct 19

Hi Jac,
Thanks for sharing your inspiring and courageous story. Sorry to hear what you had to endure in childhood, and I admire your helping caring spirit.
Hugs,
Jess.

Jill Langhus
Oct 19
Oct 19

She's back! :-)

Glad to see you're back, dear!

Hope you're feeling better now?!

XX

SeemaKhandale
Oct 20
Oct 20

Hello JAP,
Just be with your Desire, Hope, and All will be well!!!

Jane
Oct 23
Oct 23

Hello Jap :) I am truly inspired about what you have become after all your experiences you have gone through at a young age but it never stopped you from loving and inspire others about endurance. Keep your head up and let your experience be transformed into positiveness withing your family and with your family.

Thank you so much Jane .

Thank you so much Jane .

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