Introvert yet outspoken

My parents named me Jap Mouki Christelle Alexandra. It's a combination of my great grand mother's name and inspiration from my mother . I am second child in a family of 3 and the second girl. I was born in a small community Health center in my mother's village with very little equipments. My grand mother was a nurse in that community Health center and she did a lot of work even after her retirement. She was the only state registered nurse in her village and some neighboring villages. She built a room with mud blocks very close to her kitchen so she could attend to all those who came for health reasons. The distance from the village to the main town Ebolowa was long and the roads were bad. There were specific days that you could have a car to travel to Ebolowa. People would come with injuries from the farm and from playing football, those who were sick, pregnant women etc. I loved to be in the village during holidays because I would help my grandmother and act like a mini nurse with gloves and assist her. She taught me so much and my zeal kept me going. She will let me take care of small injuries and direct me how to do it. Imagine the joy and fulfillment in me .I vowed to be a nurse . I am starting my nursing studies next year .

Growing up wasn't that rosy with mum and dad pouring out love on me and me getting what I want . At the age of 3, I had to live with family friends and family members because my mum had to finish her education. I had to go through a lot of emotional and physical violence and my only comfort was when I will go to my mini nursing during summer holidays. This shaped me to be an introvert and not know what parent's love is like. I was the child who grew up and will always stay restricted because I didn't belong to the family I lived with. Even when I finally went back to my parents 9 years later, I was still living with fear and restrictions because I grew up that way. Fear traumatized me and talking to someone was my greatest fear. I found comfort within myself.

Having the desire to work as a nurse, to reach out to people and to help young girls pushed me to be outspoken. Wasn't an easy ride, I am still working on myself . The prove is I am telling my story now .

Now I can talk to young girls, empower them to be who they want to be, encourage them to come out of their shelves and shine . .

i am still on a ride to my dream but talking and encouraging others has liberated me. 

You can call me Jap because you are family to me now . This is my story

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