never give up in life.im an a good example

God gaves me a ways to escape from our house to go search my family by going from house to house till I reach my father’s elder brother where I stayed for a year.before I decide to go search for them I wanted to kill my self by hang my self in a tree or just jump in the river soo I die once for all.
My dad’s brother he treated me as im his own kid taking us to school with his children and he makes them understand that im also part of the family.i was happy to stay with them till my mom found me again by calling the landline at our neighbour because there wer no telephones at the village and many people where not using cellphones also.i went to talk to mom and I tell her everything what had happening but not about the rapping issues.then she told me that she been asking my dad how am I doing and if I can go visit her at swakopmund ,in the coast of namibia where she moved from walvis since they wer nomore dating with my dad when she found out that he was already married she was pregnant again with my little brother.

All my dreams was cut out.when I was young my dreams is to become a doctor but then how if my education was spoiled by this people? The question is who will pay for my study if my dad Aberdeen me at his village?
Sometime I feel like to be silent and not to tell people what had happen in my life but God is telling me to go one day to the tv shows,write my own book and tell the world how I grew up and how I suffered in my life.this is really my new wishes to do just for me to be free from all worries.till today I have never asked my stepmom why she mistreated me or even my dad but I used to visit them most of Decembers .

this is some of the pragaraphs that i took from my own story that im busy working on it.can anyone out there tell me how do i start my own book about my self? or any website where i can send my letters where everyone in the world will find this?
i want to share how i grew up and how i suffered in my life.