Transformed Mind Transformed Life
May 28, 2019
Story
When I ponder my life at this moment - on the eve of International Women's Day 2016, it is difficult to believe that I was sitting in a safehouse for battered women, alone, on Mother's Day in 2012. I was not safe in my own home. My abuser had manipulated the minds of my children, and they believed him when he told them that I was weaving a web of lies in order to get him thrown in jail. I was financially destitute and drowning in debt. I was isolated. No one besides by sister knew the truth of my situation. My life was covered in a vail of shame. And fear. Unspeakable fear. My mind was a tangled mess. I truly believed that if I prayed hard enough, things would change. But after twenty-two horrible years with a batterer, the only thing that changed was my belief in myself and God. But something happened in that safe house. Something inside me said \"no more.\" That was the beginning of my journey out of the darkness. The transformation of my mind began with telling the truth. Despite my fears that people would not believe me or would think badly of me, I told the truth. Because I told the truth, someone besides the man who was battering me was speaking into my life. The women that I decided to trust told me that it was not God's will for me to abused. They told me that I was worth so much more. They told me through words and acts of sacrificial love, that I mattered. Getting out from under the opression of an abuser allowed me to see things for how they really were. I realized I was right. I was not overly sensitive or emotional. I was right about everything. Slowly but surely the lies fell to the ground and the truth took root into my soul which led to a transformed mind. This led to a transformed life. I am no longer living in abuse. I am safe. I am completely restored to my children. I am financially restored. And the best part is God is using everything that I endured to transform the minds of other women. Through my blog, the two books I have written, speaking engagements, radio interviews and one on one mentoring, I am making a difference - one life at a time. As I celebrate International Women's Day 2016 I celebrate the beautiful women who helped transform my mind with truth and walked with me through a terrifying and dark time. I celebrate my loving God who rescued me from my abusive situation and protected me from death. I celebrate myself. I no longer feel unworthy and inadequate. I feel powerful and strong. If I can be transformed in this way, so can you. Here's to the beauty and power of the spirit inside each and every one of us!
