Remembering

Joelyn Soldevilla Biag
Posted February 15, 2020 from Philippines

You were my constant. My coffee and kakanin in the morning, my hot soup after work and travel, my turmeric tea when I got sick, my “food always tastes better at home” vibe.

You were my constant. I went out into the world knowing that when I came back your arms would embrace me, and your hands would hold mine.

You were the rose on special occasions. You were the daisies on ordinary days. You were the jokes on bright days. You were the happy thoughts on nasty days. 

You were the cards which said “I saved one peso a day just so I could get you this card.” You were the phone calls who asked “have you eaten?” and “What is your food?”

You were my constant. You were my “I am so glad I’m going home to.” You were my “I miss home because of.” You were my “I will just sit here to be with you.”

You were my constant. And I sometimes forget that you are gone. That you are now in a better world. Then I cry. And I wish that I can kiss you one more time. 

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Paulina Nayra
Feb 15
Feb 15

Oh mine! How poignant. Your verses are filled with love and longing. Ramil would be tickled by your words. He must be smiling from ear to ear feeling lucky having you. Indeed, love draws the poets in us. Keep writing Joelyn. Welcome to World Pulse!
Hugggs...

Anita Shrestha
Feb 15
Feb 15

Thank you for sharing

Welcome to World Pulse, Ate Joelyn! Mabuhay ang mga Pinay!

What a heartfelt first post! I could feel the longing of wanting to see someone again. I’m so sorry for your loss. We don’t move on from grief, we move along in life with it. Hugs po!

I’m looking forward to reading more of your stories.

My husband Jerick said he knows you. He handled your seaweed project in Catarman back when he was still in Oxfam. Small world po. Hope to meet you one day!

Welcome to our growing global family, Ate!

Tamarack Verrall
Feb 15
Feb 15

What a beautiful remembrance.

Felicitas Wung
Feb 15
Feb 15

Wow!
What a beautiful writeup Joelyn
Welcome to world pulse

maeann
Feb 15
Feb 15

Welcome to World Pulse Joelyn :) Your story is your power.

Thank you for sharing your story to us.

Anita Kiddu Muhanguzi

Dear Joselyn,
You are most welcome to the World Pulse family. This is such a beautiful post of remembrance of a beautiful friendship. Looking forward to many more of your posts.
Have a lovely day.

Akshaya9
Feb 21
Feb 21

Hi Ate Joelyn,
Welcome here in World Pulse. Thank you for sharing your story and Sorry for your loss. Looking forward to your next story ate :-) .

Have a nice day

Chidimma
Mar 13
Mar 13

What a heart felt post. Remembering someone dear to you.