I joined World Pulse in December 2017.
Three years ago, I was an isolated, silenced, insecure stay-at-home mother without a clear direction in life. I thought pursuing personal dreams were already too late for me, and that I might be destined to be a lifetime caretaker of my son with special needs and disabilities.
As a stay-at-home mother living in a place away from my hometown, my life is like a COVID-19 lockdown. Just as how the world faces the pandemic, with mental health issues on the rise, that too was my life. Being alone at home, taking care of children, traumatic events from the past stubbornly crept in. I journaled a lot, pouring memories and reflections into writing. But journaling wasn't enough.
Those were also the times I couldn’t celebrate myself as a woman because I simply didn’t fit into society’s mold. If their image of an ideal woman/wife/mother is a competition, I was already disqualified. I didn’t graduate college in time (I was out-of-school for six years), I didn’t have the perfect body, I didn’t give birth naturally, and I failed to breastfeed. To top it all, for them, my sin was so grave for being punished to raise a child with special needs. Negligible, Uninspiring, Unimportant. In short, NOT ENOUGH.
All those societal noises didn’t help the inner mental scripts of emotional abuse growing up. Their voices became my truth.
The weight of one negative word is heavy, that's why it needs at least three positive affirmations to negate that. That is how powerful encouragement is. I found that on World Pulse.
With every story I posted on this platform, I received praises, appreciation, and empowerment. I began believing the encouragement conveyed to me. I learned to love, accept, celebrate, and encourage myself. I AM ENOUGH.
Not only that, reading stories from our World Pulse sisters inspired me. I was in awe at how women changemakers overcome their challenges; how they turn their pain into purpose, their trauma into triumph, and their afflictions into achievements. INSPIRING!
After three years in World Pulse, I am an empowered woman who finally found my voice. Although the pandemic made this year a challenging one, I can say this is my year of breakthrough.
It began with coloring my hair pink, embracing the fact that it's ok not to fit in.
The invitation from World Pulse to record a video clip for #SheTransformsTech promotion stirred the courage to be in front of a camera.
I'm camera-shy but I pushed myself a little bit by:
- co-hosting the World Pulse Philippines webinar series with Mae Ann
- conducting webinars, "The Power of Empathy", "Dealing With Depression (for AuSome Parents)", and more.
- organizing a World Pulse event in partnership with Autism Family Support Group during International Women's Day and shared about Overcoming Depression.
- being a trainer at World Pulse Ambassador's Thriving Thursdays, "Tips in Writing A Project Proposal".
- speaking at the Aspire Reinvent Conference, my first international speaking engagement, "A Revolution of Encouragers".
- sharing a message of encouragement to Autism Family Support Group, "Your Scars, Your Strength".
- hosting monthly Encourager Parties, together with Dawn and Manasa, where I share tips on encouragement.
The activities mentioned above gave me the confidence to finally start my YouTube Channel called Radiant Fields, a channel where I talk about encouragement. I was joking about it early this year, but I did it!
I call this a breakthrough because speaking is not my best skill. I would prefer chat messaging and sending emails rather than voice calls or video calls at any given time. Showing my face in videos is terrifying for me, but this is my way of leaving my comfort zone and honing my speaking skills. I want to be articulate in speaking one day.
Aside from starting my YouTube channel, I am also writing a book about Encouragement. I have always wanted to publish books, but I was somehow lost on what to write or how to start. But after the positive feedback of my Aspire Speech, I know that writing about encouragement is a good place to start.
This is only the beginning of greater things to come. Thank you, World Pulse Team and Community, for walking alongside me in my journey from brokenness to breakthrough!