Wounded Healer.My Healing Process

When I finally decided to move out of the abusive marriage,I was filled with guilt in my heart and bitterness. I hated myself for following my parents rules blindly. I hated myself for not rejecting my parents proposal to marry a complete stranger. I hated myself for taking myself into such a mess. I hated my parents for putting me into such a situation of pain and regrets.I hated my ex husband so much for abusing me emotionally,physically and psychologically and sometimes transfered that aggression to my daughter when she makes me angry. With all this hatred,I kept living in pain until when I finally decided to change my perspective. 

I began to feel better and healed from within when I made up my mind to completely forgive myself and stop blaming myself for everything that happened. I felt better and healed from within when I made up my mind to forgive my parents for everything and I also felt better and healed when I made up my mind to forgive my ex husband for all he did to me and decided to start loving my daughter intentionally. I my healing process I learnt to love myself more,appreciate me more, value me more,give myself a treat oftenly and I don't allow anyone to make me feel any less about myself. After forgiving myself and every one around me I am a better person to myself, a better mom to my daughter, a better social worker, a better community volunteer.