My mess

Im so sick of everything going on. My life feels like a ferris wheel. One day im doing so well and my life is great, the next it feels like nothing will ever get better. Im the type of person that will sacrifce everything and anything for someone, and its painful because they wont do anything for me. I lut so much work into relationships, and sadly the truth is that when you care too much, it bites you in the back and breaks you. Im told to keep my head up and focus on the good things, BUT WHAT IF I DONT WANT TO?! Im lowkey done with this, i dont want to deal with it. I need to surround myself in a better environment and stop letting these things define me. Anyone relate? I feel ya if you do.