Being a Voice for The Past, Present and Unfolding Future

Carmen Mojica
Posted April 15, 2013 from United States

I have the desire to be heard. To use my voice as an instrument so that I may add to the growing symphony of passion and revolution burning in the chests of the downtrodden, oppressed and desperate masses. My dream for my life is to break the cycle of despair and breathe joy and life into the world.

I have kept an online journal since I was in high school. It has been my way of recording my story so that, at the very least, I knew I was listening to myself. I wrote a lot of my despair, pain and turbulent teenage emotions into poems that I would share with my peers. It was my secret pride and joy - my ability to skillfully use words. It was in college through being part of the poetry community that I realized my voice was bigger than me. I was embraced by the slam poets because they were moved by the rawness of my words. I discovered that my journey spoke to many people in the audience. At the end of college, my poetry became more focused on my womanhood and development into my Afro-descendant identity.

After college, I continued to keep a blog and shifted my attention to my body. I had a lot of healing to do, from childhood sexual trauma to all the emotionally traumatic experiences I've had since. My words became confessional and liberating; my poetry became statements of power. At the end of 2011, I was introduced to this community and was blown away by how other women were courageously telling their stories from across the world. World Pulse as an international community stunned me.

I applied to Voices of the Future because there is a richness in the past and my healing from it that I need to share. I carefully choose my words, keeping them honest but moving in the direction of transformation. Too often, we know how to write about our pain and can dwell in it, retraumatizing ourselves again and again. I realized that on the journey I began on this site. Though it was healing to be supported, I felt that I needed to help move myself and other women into a place of transcendence. With my work as a doula, birth advocate and student midwife, my life has become a series of confrontations with death and the inevitable, glorious and long-awaited rebirth. My personal vision for my life is to evolve and put the past to rest while carrying its lessons into a new world that is forthcoming. To speak out about the ills in the world but with a voice of hope: that shedding light will bring a healing to our families and world that has not been seen in centuries. We can heal this world with our words. I know this because I am healing myself and those around me with my words. Peace.

Voices of Our Future Application: Your Journey and Vision

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Merlin James
Apr 15, 2013
Apr 15, 2013

You are the voice of the past, present and future. Yes your voice is bigger and getting powerful here at WP.I like that putting the past to rest and carrying its lessons into a new world.

You pen does that wonder. Keep it up.

Love

Carmen Mojica
Apr 15, 2013
Apr 15, 2013

thank you so much sharontina. your support means the world to me!!!

Sangita Thapa
Apr 15, 2013
Apr 15, 2013

'We can heal this world with our words', its absolutely true! LatiNegra, you have spoken your words and i can hear they are laud. Thanks for posting.

Carmen Mojica
Apr 16, 2013
Apr 16, 2013

thank you :)

j3ssm3ss
Apr 21, 2013
Apr 21, 2013

So powerful Latinegra - your personal journey is the perfect representation of the power of words, such intelligent and thought provoking writing, free of self-pity but full of honesty.

I thought your comment about how reading others words moved you to realisations about not dwelling on pat experiences, but moving towards more proactive healing and supporting others, is really key. You've responded very appropriately to the brief and it was a pleasure to read! Keep writing!

Carmen Mojica
Apr 21, 2013
Apr 21, 2013

thank you sis for your support. i am still learning how to let go and it's been such a deeply healing journey. thank you so much!

Busayo Obisakin
Apr 23, 2013
Apr 23, 2013

Dear LatiNegra, I am really inspiring by your words. Keep on breathing joy and life into the world!!

Much Love Busayo

Carmen Mojica
Apr 23, 2013
Apr 23, 2013

thank you so much! that's the plan and the mission...to continue to bring light. love and light!

weaverheart
May 03, 2013
May 03, 2013

Hi Ynanna,

Your voice rings truth; loud, and clear as a bell! I am so happy that you are here, both for your own journey and also as an inspiration to others. You have much to say and I feel certain that you will continue to use your "voice" passionately on this healing path. Many blessings to you along the way. May your being touch many, many others. Most of all, may this resonance of truth be your kindred spirit and continue to guide you all ways.

Laura

Carmen Mojica
May 03, 2013
May 03, 2013

Wow Laura. Thank you for your generosity in blessing my post! I am touched that you hear me so clearly. I look forward to sharing more with this community. Love and light!

Khadijah Aja Tambajang
Aug 12, 2014
Aug 12, 2014

You speak for us all. Your words are as beautiful as how I imagine your soul to be. Each line made me smile.

Carmen Mojica
Aug 12, 2014
Aug 12, 2014

thank you! i'm glad i was able to make you smile :)

Carolina Cimador
Aug 18, 2014
Aug 18, 2014

Hi Ynanna! That powerful voice for young women fighting to leave your past and change reality. Your word and history are laudable will shine to bring more! l hug in light and hope! Our life stories are always perfect and never stop! Thanks for share. Every word counts With warm & faith

Carmen Mojica
Aug 22, 2014
Aug 22, 2014

thank you so much!!!