Once upon a time Hope meant despair.

Leonora Le Saldo
Posted December 14, 2019 from Trinidad and Tobago

Every human being hopes for something. And that hope builds into expectation and yearning. Hope is meant to keep us living each day with the anticipation that tomorrow will be better, that our lives will change, that the thing we are hoping for will be manifested and we often push, work and struggle in hope of achieving.

Yet, hope can lead to bewilderment and pain and after many dashed expectations I have learned that hope is simply being present in every moment in life. In being present this enable me to live life without expectations but simply live life and work towards making it better. As I hoped for so many things and saw so many good acts which gave me hope yet I struggled to understand hope as it was rarely manifested in my life it was only when I understood what being present means to me then I had a glimpse of what hope means to me.

At a certain period in my life these few lines marred my experiences with hope:

I hope for a better tomorrow, yet each new day brings the pain of the day before. I hope for a life free of abuse and violence, yet life itself brings violence unexpectedly. I hope to overcome my pain and traumas, yet pain lingers and trauma has left a life-long mark. I hope someone can say to me "you are beautiful", yet all I see are my imperfections. I hope to be accepted and included, yet poverty has eluded me and accepted I am not. I hope to pursue academic education to stand with authority and speak on things that matter, yet this is a fleeting dream. I hope for love and to embrace its authenticity, yet love seems to be an undiscovered part of my experience. I hope for peace so I can live, yet peace runs from me as if I am the creator of war.

Today, I no longer hope, I just live because hope not realized can make one bitter. However, I realized that hope is not that "grand thing which we look for" but hope occurs in small moments of grace. Its in the breath we breathe, the steps we take, the connections we make, the stories we read and the encouragement we give.

Hope is in the resources we share, the meal we purchase for another person, the gifts we receive, and sitting at the bus station and seeing the beautiful sunset. Hope is being present in every moment we breathe.

This story was submitted in response to Moments of Hope.

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Lisbeth
Dec 15, 2019
Dec 15, 2019

Dear Aunty,
Oh mine what a wise saying from you. As I was reading I found myself in the wonderland.

Hope! Hope! Hope! Now I know the meaning of Hope from the above statement the picture is much clearer.

"Hope is in the resources we share, the meal we purchase for another person, the gifts we receive, and sitting at the bus station and seeing the beautiful sunset. Hope is being present in every moment we breathe.".

This post is really great for a Sunday morning, thanks for making my day.

You do have a great Sunday.
Hugs :-)

Marie Abanga
Dec 15, 2019
Dec 15, 2019

Yes sis,
Hope to me is in every breathe we take, every move we make, everything we say, that helps us and the next person look forward to yet another moment or day. This is who i want to be #bethehope.
Thanks for sharing

Karen Quiñones-Axalan
Dec 15, 2019
Dec 15, 2019

Hello, dear sister Leonora,

We have a saying in our country, " Habang may buhay, may pag-asa" which can be translated as "While there is life, there is hope" or " As long as we are alive, there is hope."

This resonates with me, "hope occurs in small moments of grace. Its in the breath we breathe, the steps we take, the connections we make, the stories we read and the encouragement we give."

Thank you for sharing your reflection with us.

Jill Langhus
Dec 16, 2019
Dec 16, 2019

Hello Dear Leonora,

Your post is so sad, dear. You don't have hope? How can we help you to regain hope? I think that it's great that you're living in the present moment and grateful, too, but please don't give up on your dreams. There is always hope, and there is always growth. Every day we have a new day to decide to have the intention to change something, whether it's a belief, fear, moment, etc. I will hold the hope and dream for you to pursue whatever education it is that you are dreaming of. If you're dreaming of it, I believe it's part of your mission, purpose and destiny, and that you will find a way to make it become a reality. Please keep us posted, dear, and let us know how we can help you on your journey.

XX

Anita Shrestha
Dec 17, 2019
Dec 17, 2019

Thank you for sharing

lizzymark
Dec 18, 2019
Dec 18, 2019

Hmmm I love this,"Hope is being present in every moment ". So right sis, and yes the little or much we do for others, u truly hope. Its not just about ourselves but looking out for others as well. Thank you for shearing dear.

lizzymark
Dec 18, 2019
Dec 18, 2019

Hmmm I love this,"Hope is being present in every moment ". So right sis, and yes the little or much we do for others, u truly hope. Its not just about ourselves but looking out for others as well. Thank you for shearing dear.

Andra Marasteanu
Dec 25, 2019
Dec 25, 2019

This is so powerful, Leonora!
" it was only when I understood what being present means to me then I had a glimpse of what hope means to me" - I love this and I will have it memorised <3
Thank you!

Anita Kiddu Muhanguzi

Hello my dear Sister,
It is very true that hope is in the small moments of grace. They come together to build a bigger picture of hope for all of us. Thank you so much for sharing with us about your moments of hope. It is very important for us to always be very hopeful.
Happy new year and have a blessed day.

Sinyuy Geraldine
Jan 07
Jan 07

Dear Leonora,
thank you so much for your story on hope. Thank God you no longer despair for things you cannot change. yes, we have to look for what gives hope and appreciate the little beautiful things around us.