I Have Lost My Interest in Education

Louisashei
Posted November 9, 2020 from Cameroon

Faith, my junior sister, I can describe her in three words, enthusiastic, go-getting, courageous. Growing up she had so many dreams, she wanted to be everything, a doctor, nurse, engineer, she was probably too excited, she loved education and the possible outcome just overwhelmed her. Whenever I go to the village for holidays she will always tell me, sister I want to come to the university, am working extremely hard, I have not yet decided on what I want to be in the future but in any field I choose I know I will be the best.

 

Two weeks ago, I got a call from Faith, her tone was different, faith is a fast-talker, she doesn’t count her words but she struggled to say good morning. “What is the problem I responded “. She said I want to tell you something please don’t be angry. With much fear and panic I asked her in a loud tone “are you pregnant? She said No, for a moment I was relieved, then I asked did you steal anything, she said, “Godforbeit” you know am not a thief. At that moment, I lost my patience and I shouted stop wasting my time I have a lot to do just tell me already.

 

“Sister I have lost interest  in education" she said, I paused for a while, her words stroke my heart and I thought to myself I wish you were pregnant, I didn’t know when my voice tone increased, how can you say that what happened to all your dreams? stopping school at what age who have you been listening to? I didn’t know I had asked so many questions until I heard her sobbing. I asked her in a soft tone, tell me what happened.

She recounted I am nineteen years old, I have not gone to school for four years now since the crisis started,

This year when I started school, I felt like there is a block in my brain, I don’t understand any subject, am feeling too old for form five. What do you want to do? , I asked faintly I just want to get married she says. I wasn’t the only one who was heartbroken, my parents were and all attempts to make her change her mind has been futile.

 

Who should I blame? Faith just like many others found herself in a situation she could not control.

What happens when youths start losing their interest in education?

 

I want peace, peace peace 

I want children to go to school without fear

 

 

This story was submitted in response to Peace for Cameroon.

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valem
Nov 09, 2020
Nov 09, 2020

DEAR LOUISASHEI
how are you there?thanks for sharing , When I started reading I gave myself my reasons that this one wants to drop out of school because she is pregnant.God have mercy on me because many of us judge without giving space to the victims.
Girls face many challenges, especially at a adolescent age along the way, they face threats of rape and other forms of violence at school and immoral teachers turn their wives into a situation that pushes them to hate the school and its environment..

Nini Mappo
Nov 10, 2020
Nov 10, 2020

Dear Louisashei,
This is heart-breaking:/ The crisis has stolen so much from families and individuals....stolen the present and the future and emptied young people of hope and the chance to dream. This is so sad:/
Hugs to Faith. It must have been such a difficult four years to produce such disillusionment. My heart goes out to her and others like her.
I join your voice and those of others as we pray for peace.

Louisashei
Nov 10, 2020
Nov 10, 2020

Thanks Mmn

Caroline Bokwe
Nov 10, 2020
Nov 10, 2020

My dear Louisashei, the cry of your sister echoes in so many beautiful voices. It is saddening to see young women loosing their dreams of education which is the key to the future, for reasons beyond their control. Faith is very innocent yet suffers the outcome of two giants fighting. I feel the pain of so many Faiths out there. To Faith, it is not over yet sister, until it is over. Keep your Faith, and you will still go to school even at age 50+, so do not give up on your dreams.
One Day, Just One Day!

Louisashei
Nov 10, 2020
Nov 10, 2020

thanks Mmn

Andrace
Nov 12, 2020
Nov 12, 2020

Dear Louisa, Thank you for sharing your heart cry and pain. Oh my God! Dear Faith, we see, hear and feel you. The situation in Cameroon has been so sad. I join my sisters here to sincerely pray for sanity urgently. It's so unfair to wrongfully take advantage of one another. We ought to always remember that we are all human. So sorry about all what you've all had to go through. Four years is so sickening and tiring. Let's not give up, Sis. There is a silver lining behind these dark clouds. We all "want peace, peace peace".

Love and hugs,
E. J.

ARREY- ECHI
Nov 19, 2020
Nov 19, 2020

Dear Louisa,
Welcome to the Pulse. I hope you are doing well. Thank you for sharing this heartbreaking story of your sister, Faith. Thank you too for being a good sister and friend to her that she found it easier to confide her fears and worries in you.
It is heart breaking, the pyschological and mental consequencies of this war can not be quantified. It is stealing the dreams, lives and desire for anything from so many of our young ones.

I pray with your love and encouragement, Faith would be able to pick herself up again. It is never too late to finish school, but she will need a lot of support to get through her mental anguish of what these four years have done to her.
Marie is a sister focused on mental health. You can connect with her here and just maybe, she may be able to provide some useful tips to hep Faith deal with this block. https://www.worldpulse.com/community/users/marie-abanga-0
Wishing you all the best. Looking forward to read from you again.

Karen Quiñones-Axalan
Nov 20, 2020
Nov 20, 2020

Hello, Louisashei,

Welcome to World Pulse! I'm happy that a new voice from Cameroon is rising up.

Please, dear, hug your sister for me. I, too, went through a phase or phases when I lost interest in education. I understand what she feels. Just help her process what she feels without judgment. It has been a traumatic and confusing times in your country. Let's give her that break. It is ok not to be ok.

Praying for you and your sister.