Emotionally Exhausted

maeann
Posted September 5, 2019 from Philippines
Emotionally Exhausted

Suddenly you woke up in the middle of the night, you went to pee, when you went back to bed you couldn’t get back to sleep. You’ve started thinking about your work that needs to be done, things that you haven’t started yet, the deadlines that you need to meet, then your thinking about the next meeting and you need to report again.

Or a debt that you need to pay because the deadline is getting nearer. And you felt like exhausted and it’s getting 4 am you are still awake. You said to yourself I wanna go back to sleep, but you can’t. So you pick up your phone and watch something so you will not think about your work, your debt, or issues that bother you…. then your eyes started to close.

When you are about to sleep your alarm rang it’s time to wake up… Oh my, it’s morning once again, you don’t feel like doing anything. At work, even if you extend more hours, still there’s more work to do, and then you thought that your work seems pointless because even if you tried to do your best there is always mistakes with what you do.

You are no longer efficient. You recognize your lapses. You complain that you want to quit and give up your job. You feel tired of the same thing you do every day from work to the house. You left the office unfulfilled. You queue for a ride, waiting for 30 minutes or sometimes 1 hour till your turn, and face long traffic till you arrive home. You’re home, and it’s past 9:00 pm. You had your dinner and went to bed because you’re tired, you like to browse your Facebook and watch some youtube, then it’s almost 1 hour, your eyes tired, so you don’t have time for your devotion because you are tired. So you have a short prayer, then sleep.

Then repeat. You push yourself beyond your limits. Even if you lack sleep, you still woke up early. Even if you know that you are tired, you still slept late. Even if you are gaining weight, you still eat sweets. Even if you know that it is bad for your health, you still do it. You hear them, but you don’t listen. And when you encourage them, it’s like you don’t need one. You are telling them it’s all right, but they don’t know, you are not all right.

But you continue to ask how are they, yet they don’t even ask how are you. You find yourself running away from things. You are not interested in others life. You try to join other groups of people, maybe you can belong or you can learn from them or go someplace to find what you look for.

You compare yourself to others and thought that life is unfair. You would tell yourself, I am doing better than that person, why does he/she have this, why I don’t have. Then you start feeling down. You tried to save and work hard, but still, the debt can’t leave you behind.

The worst things are that you don’t find any hope and think to hurt yourself. You look around and you don’t feel joy in what you do. You just did what you do, for you to survive. You find life stressful. You are physically present but your mind is out of sight. Not interested in things anymore.

What are these? These feelings are signs of emotional exhaustion. You might be experiencing burnout or depressed. There is nothing wrong if you feel weak and honest with yourself that there will come a time that you cannot be strong for others.

There will come a time that your tank will get empty because of how you have been filling other people’s tank so that they can be encouraged and move on with their lives.

It is normal. Just like how Elija felt after he defeated the pagan prophet. He received a death threat from the Queen, so he fled for his life. He went alone into the wilderness, traveling all day (read 1 Kings 19:3-4 NLT).

Even Christians who are active in the Church knows the word of God, active with their ministry and with life group can experience emotional exhaustion.

What more of those who don’t have a church family. Those who don’t read the bible. Those who don’t have a relationship with Jesus Christ. How they will cope up with this emotion.

So what did Elijah after feeling exhausted? He told God, his frustrations. He complains to God. In 1 Kings 19:10, Elijah says this to God: “I have been very zealous for the Lord God Almighty. The Israelites have rejected your covenant, torn down your altars, and put your prophets to death with the sword. I am the only one left, and now they are trying to kill me too” (NIV).

How then we recover from being emotionally exhausted?

Reveal your feelings. Tell God how you felt. It is okay. Complain to Him. If you are irritated tell him. If you are angry, tell him. Release all that you feel. Let God heal you with what you feel. You can cry to the Lord. Psalm 34:17 says “The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles”  Expressing your feelings to a trusted friend or family is a big way to unload those emotions. Cry and let it be heard, then afterward you will feel a release.

Remember God’s promise. Psalm 145:13 says The Lord is faithful to all His promises and loving toward all he has made” He is faithful to his promises.  Be assured that at the right time whatever you are waiting, he will fulfill that promise to you. Isaiah 60:22 says “I am the Lord, in its time I will do this swiftly” There is a desire or a dream that we wanted to achieve to happen. And this makes us sometimes frustrated.

It is very hard to wait, especially if it’s been too long. And sometimes, we tend to get tired of waiting when you know that you have been faithfully obeying or getting older. But still, remember that God is faithful to his promise of your life.

Rest and Relax. Sometimes all we need is to rest our body. We are so hard with ourselves that we don’t give time to rest and relax. God simply let Elijah sleep in 1 Kings 19:5, “Then he lay down under the bush and fell asleep” (NIV). Sometimes we deprive ourselves by resting our body. We thought that we don’t have time to rest because we are busy to be emotionally exhausted.

That result, of migraine, too much eating, has no appetite, can’t sleep or bothered. We relax by simply go to a place or do something that can give us peace.

Refocus on God. Oftentimes, we thought that we are the only person who can solve everything. We forgot that we cannot control things. We tend to put all the things in our hands. You know the word of God, but you doubt if it is going to work out. You ask yourself, Lord why I am feeling this way. What is happening to me? Do I need to undergo this? What are you teaching me right now? Why I felt so tired of things around me.

Those questions are valid. But God says to focus on me and not with your problem. He is in control and not you. Psalm 46:10 says “Be still, and know that I am God” Let God be God in your life. You are not God, and He is God. You don’t know what’s gonna happen tomorrow. You do not know what will happen at this time, in the minutes of the hour. Only God knows. Just refocus on God.  Run to Him. Go back to Him. If you think that you know already the word, just read it again, meditate on it. Listen to Christian music. Let refreshes you with his words. You cannot escape from him anyway, so why hide.

Lord, when I am emotionally exhausted, let your presence be upon me. Do not let this emotion ruin my relationship with you. Let this be a strength instead, so I could continue to be fruitful in my life. If there is a purpose of why I am undergoing this, may this strengthen my faith with you. I know Lord, that I am not the only person who is experiencing this, I pray that they would be able to find the courage to reveal their feelings to you, remember your promise to them, to rest and relax and refocus back to you.

Lord, I cannot do this by myself, I humbly need you. Thank you for the good rest of my body and mind. Let this prayer be heard and claiming for healing emotionally in Jesus name, amen

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Lisbeth
Sep 05
Sep 05

Dear meamn,
I hope you are doing well and thank you for sharing this encouraging post with us.it just made my day and I can relate very well to your story.
I remember sometime ago I was owning someone oh mine. I couldn't sleep, I got headache haha. The stress of our our world now is too much and it also make me ask same question. If we who have God are very stressful then how about those without God?
Your answer will be good as mine.

I hope you have a good Thursday.
Regards

maeann
Sep 06
Sep 06

Hi Lisbeth, thank you :) Thank you for reading. I just experienced this and I thought that I need to write it down. It helps to recover. I'm doing well now...I just realized, that I really need a rest, I and I did so now I'm recovered.

Lisbeth
Sep 06
Sep 06

Oh sorry, glad to hear you have recovered. I enjoyed reading it. You very welcome.
Regards

maeann
Sep 07
Sep 07

no worries. thank you.

Kay Link
Sep 05
Sep 05

So many of us can relate to this. I love what you say: "There will come a time that your tank will get empty because of how you have been filling other people’s tank so that they can be encouraged and move on with their lives." This reminds me of the best piece of advice I have heard lately - a woman told me to imagine I am carrying a bag and that every time I prioritize the wellbeing of others over myself, I take weight off them and put it in my own bag - weighing me down more and more over time instead of sharing the weight equally.

Thank you for sharing how you handle emotional exhaustion through religion. I hope you are doing well -how are you?

maeann
Sep 06
Sep 06

Hi Kay, I'm doing well now., thank you. I just realized that I cannot handle everything with my two hands. You are right when you said that "sharing the weight equally" :) and also making sure that our tank will not get empty. My relationship with God is where I can depend on... then everything will follow.

Kay Link
Sep 06
Sep 06

Yes, so true. Your sisters and loved ones around you are here to help you carry the weight and to help 'fill your tank' with encouragement and belief in you, as well. I am so glad you can find inner peace with God even when you are facing tough times. Wishing you all the best in all your endeavors and for lasting serenity :)

maeann
Sep 07
Sep 07

oh yest thank you so much. this is the purpose of having sisters around the world :)

Oluwatoyin Olabisi
Sep 06
Sep 06

Please follow me.
You just made my day today. I was actually feeling empty and I felt I had a lot of Financial Stress but your post made me to realize the need to trust God. Thank you and kindly follow me back.

maeann
Sep 06
Sep 06

Hi Oluwatoyin, thanks much. Followed you already :)
I agree, let us continue to trust God.

Anjana Vaidya
Sep 06
Sep 06

Dear Meamn,
Thankyou for sharing your thoughts. Keep your faith and
regards,anjana

maeann
Sep 07
Sep 07

Thank you Anjana :)

Tamarack Verrall
Sep 07
Sep 07

Dear Maeann,
This is such an important subject, and you have raised it vividly. It is so easy, almost predictable that we can get to that "running on empty" given the enormous and so often painful tasks we are working to accomplish. Taking care of ourselves is so important. I am glad that your religion brings you the strengthening and peace that it does. You ask how those who are not Christian cope. There are many religions, spiritual practices, turning to something greater than ourselves for solace, healing, understanding our next steps in life. I love the photo of women climbing a mountain. Both the struggle to push ourselves, and the healing of being together in nature.

maeann
Sep 07
Sep 07

Hi Tam, thank you for reading. I agree... taking care of ourselves is so important, because how we can care with others if we ourselves have not taken care of. I remember this instruction from a flight attendant: to put your oxygen mask first before helping others because if you run out of oxygen, you can't help anyone with their oxygen mask.

About the photo, that was me (1st) during our "Climb for a Cause" project where our beneficiary are children who are suffering of a brain tumor.

Nicole reid
Sep 07
Sep 07

Look after yourself first love you self frist most of all be kind to your self

maeann
Sep 08
Sep 08

Thanks Nicole

Hello, Mae Ann,

This is such a heartfelt inspiring post. It's true especially in our culture when one member of the family works so hard to provide for the rest. It's also true that strong people are not asked how they are because of the assumption that since they are strong, they can handle anything. But everybody is vulnerable to this emotional exhaustion, and if not addressed immediately can lead to depression.

Thank you for sharing your reflection. Resting in the presence of God is my solace, too. There's this peace that passes understanding. Even when things are not yet in order, or life is still a mess, there's peace and assurance that everything will be ok. I'm so glad you have that relationship with God. Because indeed, when we are weak, then we are strong. :)

Comparing ourselves to other people is not healthy. We do not really know what others have gone through, what battles they have to fight silently alone, or the challenges they face. Comparitisis, as Jill would say, is not good for us. So let's avoid it. We are all blessed in each of our journeys

Stay blessed!.

maeann
Sep 08
Sep 08

Thanks Karen

You're welcome. :)

Beth Lacey
Sep 08
Sep 08

Writing is so cathartic. I am happy it helped you

maeann
Sep 08
Sep 08

Thank you Beth

esther atosha
Sep 09
Sep 09

hello ,
this is my day crush storry

narayani khadka
Sep 09
Sep 09

Dear Meamn, hope you are well. Thank you for sharing this powerful writing. No matter how good we try sometimes we experience exhaustion in our lives. With optimism and prayers we can become stronger by each passing day. Thank you for sharing this. May god bless you. Amen❤️

maeann
Sep 12
Sep 12

Thank you for reading

Anita Shrestha
Sep 15
Sep 15

Wow