Should I be sad or grateful nonetheless?

Marie Abanga
Posted March 3, 2021 from Cameroon

For three days I have felt most comfortable lying down on my bag. My doctor diagnosed thyphiod and am on a mixed treatment protocol for 5 days. 

This is the first time in maybe 3 years that I had thyphiod or any illness that knuckles and buckled me up like this. I started feeling bad on Saturday but tried to fight it standing up and even walking (ah the bee in MAG). This is how on Sunday I attended an event organized by the international Victorine NDIKUM Foundation for Single Parents where I was given an award and a certificate of recognition. I couldn't even stay for the celebration and birthday cocktail of the founder aunty Vicky, because I had started shivering again.

I was feeling sad because this is not how I had hoped to launch this Women's month. I mean even working out today was such a tussle I could only manage 10 minutes.

But then, I decided to be grateful. Grateful for the opportunity to honour my body more and just let it be as it takes its time to heal and rejuvenate. Truth be told, I can't spend 3 days lying in bed or resting if am not sick hahahaha.

I am grateful for the well wishes and support from my sisters, and the tips shared on how to aid the health recovery process.

I am grateful for this platform where I can share my story and be vulnerable with my emotions and feelings.

I am grateful because as long as am alive, there is hope.

Life is full of twists and turns, but let's not give up AMEN

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jomarieb.earth
Mar 03
Mar 03

Dearest Marie,
A mover and shaker of the Cameroon has been sentenced to rest and recuperation. You are always a soldier in a fight. Now you have a fight of your own. Don't take it lightly. And it's a fight from Mother Nature reckoning she needs you to take a chill pill. Sister, please allow yourself to heal. Get well. Do whatever it takes. You have to keep that body of yours finely tuned and well guarded. Perhaps, pardon me for saying, at some point, in your struggle for whatever cause, you did let your guard down. You trusted something along the way and took it for granted. Be vigilant and be cautious with food, water, people and everything that you can and need to be cautious with. Please do your utmost to prevent poor health if there are measures in place that you can take. Since you don't relax anyway, don't relax with this. A gram of prevention is better than a kilo of cure. I'm sorry if I sound insensitive. But I know how warriors hold sharp weapons while they let their health guard down. Take good care of yourself sister. Because people love and care about you. You are a warrior woman. Put down the weapons and heal yourself.
Love and hugs...JoMarie

Marie Abanga
Mar 04
Mar 04

Oh Jo,
I don't find you insensitive at all. This is hardcore truth from a big heart which cares. I am grateful and honestly realize mother nature is drawing my attention in a radical way to what I said I wanted to for myself this year anyways. And yes yes yes, I did drop my guards some and I introspect and see some, and I was the one begging my body and promising better once am healed from this. I actually promised today to stay silent all through March 8th and keep resting hahahaha. May the universe help me with that one oooooooo
Light and love
MAG

Olutosin
Mar 04
Mar 04

Sister mi Ashia. Please rest and eat lots of fruits and water.
You will soon be fine ooo.

Marie Abanga
Mar 06
Mar 06

Thank you so much sister mi.
After a full week of intense self care and treatment, I feel my energy shifting back in hurray.