sometimes i dont want to be strong

My heart is heavy laden, and I am feeling so down cast,
my eyes are swollen and red because I cried all night long,
you come over to me and you tell me “girl you have to be strong.
” Who told you I want to be stong?”
Who told you I am strong?

I wish you could just get into the core of my bones
and you will realise that though I am still standing
My bones crumbled a long time ago
And the person you see standing is the part that still thinks that I am strong
But the bigger part of me just wants to crumble like my bones
I want to break down and cry my lungs out
Cry not alone and hoping that no one notices
But cry out loud and show the world that I am hurting inside
Show the world that I am human
And show the world that I am broken

I stand there comforting everyone else
Telling them that it is all going to be ok
But I am battling in my own skin, because I know its not ok
Everyone looks at me and oh how they marvel
They look at me from the outside never from the inside
Because though I stand tall and look all put together
I wish I could just crumble like my bones
Crumble into a million peices and cry out louYes I stand tall and yess I am smilling
but inside I am crying my back slouched with all of life’s burdens

You can look and marvel, you can always come to me if you need someone
But as you are doing all this just know that sometimes I do not want to be strong
I just want to break down and cry