What you are doing? You've wasted so much time. I hope those things hooked you really inspire and motivate you. What happened? Are you giving up? From all those bad things happened in you life. If you want to reach that path, why not make a way?
You've wasted so much time, worrying things that make yourself be deprived. “What will happen if they don't have me?”. “ How will they survive?”. “ How things be this way the way I want it?”
When are you going to wake up? Daydreaming? It will not happen if you just dream of it. Make it happen. Erase self-pitying and worrying. Make it hate.
What do you really want? Tell it honestly. Say that you don't like your life today and you want to be somebody. Say that you want to leave but in reality, you cannot.
It's enough. Save for thyself. You will turn 30, soon but you find yourself in a hurry. People have different path. It's up to us how we walk and strive. Your growing old but you there's future ahead.
Take time, pay attention to your needs; inner self.
Goals are already there. Actions must be taken. Depriving self both kills heart and soul.