When the sense of worth is scratched

Megha Venketasamy
Posted May 12, 2020 from Mauritius

|These words for any entrepreneur/business owner/self employed I speak to women but I know it resonate with men and however, you identify yourself as.|

Work has been easing out and as I write these words, I know they resonate and story the current happenings of endless out there, especially small and medium entrepreneurs and self-employed. 2020 kick started on a high note, seeds planted months ago unfolded in concrete projects. But when COVID19 kicked in, I hurled in disgust and tiredness; this was the last thing that I needed on my path. I felt betrayed for I have worked hard to be where I stood. I have had my share of inner drama during the phase.

|But who has not worked hard?| |Who has not thrived?| |Who has not had sleepless nights to crack the shells?|

In coming weeks and months, strings may tighten, priorities have shifted for people, for the world, fear has deepened and unlike before, we are wiggling in the sight of ever present uncertainty. We have been foolish enough to have led a life believing that uncertainty could be contained and managed as a “thing”.

For many of us work may not shift, we may not meet and least break-even on the forecasted returns on investments and sales figures

I write from a place of awareness and not self-pity and least self-loathing. I seek least “I am sorry and things will get better; reinvent and rethink! Be positive! Trust!”, instead hear my whispers: There is a fine line between worrying about finance and seeing oneself through the lenses of worthlessness. They are not the same. I say these words, especially for women and I know they resonate with men too.

While you worry about bringing food on the table, while you are genuinely concerned about your future and that of your family, while you are biting yourself at the “how to pay the bills?”, know there is a fine line between this worry, concern and biting and feeling, believing and thinking you are unworthy because right here right now you may be unable to meet what has been stationed as your basic needs.

Whether you manage to meet your monthly targets and maintain your defined quality of life, none of these determine your worth.

For those of us, who believe and feel we are called to lead some “higher purpose” on earth, then may we hear that the sight, faith, belief, truth and knowingness of us as worthy beyond all forces on earth and beyond is the “purpose”, for once we start seeing, feeling, hearing, witnessing, believing and observing ourselves as such, we shall see, feel, hear, witness, believe and observe the world, others, people, time, place and beyond as same.

We will no more question people’s validity for being alive and we will no more question our own validity for being alive right here right now.

I am not the only one who despite all well-intended intentions, has focused for far too long on the number of likes, traffic on shared contents, responses online, emails and messages. Through this cycle, I am not the only who felt that her/his purpose was being fulfilled out of the evidence of reaching and rippling to and through fellow humans. Through this cycle, we strangely weave a net of worthiness and fulfillment, yet we have been and we are fools to believe that this external myriad shall last.

I have been sitting with this deep opening for a month now, come what may, I am standing on my grounds as a woman who is worthy regardless of all.

If your business is crumbling down and you are wiggling in pain. I hear you | I see you | I hold space for you My heart goes out to you

I pray you find the strength to reach out for the medicine that is being poured your way. I pray you dare allow yourself to witness that which is crumbling down with the intent to open deeper to yourself and life.

I pray enough be sent your way Food| Money| Support | Love| Health| Listening | Warmth | Comfort| Safe And much more

Beyond all, I pray you rise to meet your worth in this process.

 

This is what I have had to learn through these past weeks. I may have to spend the coming weeks, cleaning, eating, writing and sharing or simply choosing to sleep and rest, none of these will invalidate my worth as a woman, as a human, as a being present on earth right here right now.

I can live without being called a coach or women circle facilitator or yoga teacher or any other titles, I am sitting with this view, none of these will determine my worth, none these will shiver my voice, instead I am choosing to roar louder and to keep reclaiming my voice. I believe, I see, I feel and I hear that more and more women need to hear this. If work is phasing, let it be but be reminded that your worth is unchanged, untouched, uncovered, ever so sacred from the beginning of time till the end.

 

“Now is the time to hear loud that whether business flourish or phase out, whether you are in deep panic, worry, anxiety, whether you oscillate through life by projecting and/ or taking all things personal, none of these can and will ever determine your worth You have always been in service of life I say this especially to women because most of us fell in the trap of "finding our purpose", while our purpose is nothing but returning home to our selves. Home is worthiness within and beyond. It's one thing to do and be for the world and another thing to know that regardless of what we choose to and be do, we are worthy.”

Love from my heart to yours

Megha Venketasamy

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Chi8629
May 12
May 12

Thank you for sharing .
Much love. Thank you .

Megha Venketasamy
May 26
May 26

much love sister

News Bee
May 13
May 13

Wow!such an encouraging and inspiring piece you have here Megha. I particularly love that part where you talked about "... living without being called any of your titles ( a coach or women circle facilitator or yoga teacher or any other titles),
Most times our Sense of self soars just by hearing our profiles read/pedigree lauded, remove those things and we feel less than our initial perception of who we know ourselves to be.
Am taking this as a personal message and I will reinvent myself. Thanks for this piece Megha.

Jill Langhus
May 13
May 13

Hello News Bee,

Welcome back! Thanks for your lovely feedback, too! Looking forward to seeing some more comments, and possibly a post, or two, from you, too:-) Hope you and your family are safe and well.

Megha Venketasamy
May 26
May 26

<3

Catherine De Freitas

This left me in awe. In awe of your honesty. In awe of the fact that it is exactly how I feel. In awe that I felt it in my soul. Beautiful lady you are Awesome. You are appreciated. From my heart to yours. :)

Megha Venketasamy
May 26
May 26

thank you for words sister. it's where I am standing right now. so instead of re-inventing, I am just observing and trusting and believing that openings are there

much love <3

Beth Lacey
May 13
May 13

What you write is so true.

Megha Venketasamy
May 26
May 26

much love <3

Anita Shrestha
May 15
May 15

Thank you for sharing

Megha Venketasamy
May 26
May 26

love <3

Vanora.Lee
May 15
May 15

Well said especially in era of social media, we are too concerned of online responses. Be ourselves and worth ourselves. Thanks for your message. Stay safe and well.

Megha Venketasamy
May 26
May 26

<3

Thelma obani 2020
May 17
May 17

Thanks for encouraging us.
Stay safe and strong.

Megha Venketasamy
May 26
May 26

much love your way

Julie Desai
May 18
May 18

Truly inspiring! Thank you for sharing

Megha Venketasamy
May 26
May 26

thank you for your words

Sinyuy Geraldine
May 18
May 18

Dear Megha. What an outpouring of the heart! What a peotic way of writing, what wise words, what an encouragement. Thank you for urging us to see our worthiness in spite of every trial including tharwted plans and failed businesses. You teach us that life is worthier than any material things. Thanks dear.

Laetitia Shindano
May 21
May 21

Chere Megha
Merci de nous partager ce message de courage,d'amour et de confiance de soi.
Je suis sure que les femmes et autres personnes qui l'entendront,vont se lever si elles étaient déjà abattues par les aléas de la vie,

A la prochaine

Laetitia

Megha Venketasamy
May 26
May 26

sending loads love your way <3

Sinyuy Geraldine
May 26
May 26

Thanks dear Megha. Thanks a million.

Kika Katchunga
Jun 10
Jun 10

Hello Megha
Thanks for sharing with us; I really like your prayers, it has blessed me a lot; May the good Lord continue to protect you too; you and your in-laws, your business .Amen

Megha Venketasamy
Jun 12
Jun 12

sending so much love your way sister