I raise my voice - My comeback story - to WORLDPULSE.....I rise

Merlin James
Posted April 1, 2019 from India
A woman's heart smiles

My dear sisters, I am coming home, to WorldPulse, after years to register my voice again, to share my story, to raise my voice…………

I remember when I first typed my heart out to WORLDPULSE. Dear Sisters, I tell you, you have no idea how many times I scrolled back and forth, page to page, story to story before I could type something down. There was loads of hesitation, fear, doubt ………….lack of words, lack of expression, but believe me, the pain was intense, and the scar was deep.  If any girl, woman, mother would narrate her story of abuse, pain and neglect, I could relate as a ‘been there situation’.  I had never thought that I would be alive at 2012 after facing all that hell out of my life in an abusive marriage- a near death experience. I lost myself in this process. I became a different woman, unable to speak or live my life as a normal woman.

But God had a different plan. Yes, to bring a change in my story….to change the stories of other sisters like me. You all gave me the courage and inspiration to move ahead. Once I entered this family of WORLDPULSE  with pain and fear and left as a person transformed to chase my dreams. I saw the picture of myself, the changed me, the strong me, empowered. There were two little girls in the picture now, my daughters, and now I see their dreams too. There are more and more girls drawn in the picture whose heart I can see so clearly full of dreams to achieve, to fly high to shine and rise.

The issues are many that affect a woman, but it’s her heart that needs to be strong to change her story. Her heart needs that balance, that ability to see through, to make decisions to solve her problems and to strive towards her goals. The mental ability of a woman is incomparable to any power on this earth. This is the one statement imprinted in my heart from the lessons I learnt in my life. So I believe in helping those women who need the support to enhance their mental health. I am there now to listen to their stories to heal them, to counsel them and guide them.

 I specialized in counseling and psychology to add to my capacity and started to focus on mental health awareness which I believe will bring a change in ‘her world’. When a woman knows to deal with her mind when it is disturbed, then she will know to deal with her life too when it gets disturbed by external forces. If she can change her story, then she can also change the story of others around her.

Now I am part of a larger group in my community, who is helping other sisters with fear and doubt to rise with beautiful wings. I talk to the children in schools , students in colleges to bring this change from within to last longer towards a healthy living.

The place where I live is the southern tip of the peninsula, India. It is becoming unsafe for even kids to play in front of their houses or streets as any time they can go disappearing and be found raped and killed, burnt or cut into pieces. These were news to us until a few years ago that we hear happening in other parts of the country or world. We thought we were blessed to have a safe space. That is not the picture anymore.  Adding to honor killing, racism and discrimination of castes ending up in brutal killings, dowry deaths, now rape stands on top of all.

I thought, are we going to keep protecting the children or help them to protect themselves. Are we going to restrict and hush the children or give them sex education? Are we going to help them choose the path or tie their fingers to ours and walk an unknown path? As parents, are we trying to see their mind or keep busy with our minds? These are the questions many of us have and I am trying to help others find the answers to it to build a better neighbourhood, a better community.

So I am finally back after a looooong time ! to share myself, my stories and the stories of my sisters!

But this time charged with energy to fly after my dreams and restore the wings of my sisters too.

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Dawn Arteaga
Apr 01
Apr 01

Welcome back!! So grateful you are here! Much love to you, in sisterhood, Dawn

Merlin James
Apr 02
Apr 02

Thanks dear ! Much love, Merlin

Jill Langhus
Apr 03
Apr 03

Hi Merlin,

Thanks for sharing your inspiring, but also concerning post. It's great to have you back. I'm glad that you pursued studies in mental health since you are passionate about it. It's concerning that your community has become so violent. That can't be easy and I see your conundrum on what to focus on for your children. I hope it improves soon. Looking forward to seeing more stories from you.

Merlin James
Apr 02
Apr 02

Thank you dear ! Will continue to share more stories as long as I have pillars like you to lean on.....Much love, Merlin

Jill Langhus
Apr 03
Apr 03

You're very welcome:-)

Aw, thanks!

Hope you're having a good day!

Shavy
Apr 01
Apr 01

Hi! Glad to read that you are back with lots of positivity and energy to help others. I am trying to study about the laws and their implications about sex education in schools in India. Would like to know your views about the same.
Thanks...

otahelp
Apr 01
Apr 01

Hi Merlin welcome back to us your sisters. We are happy you are alive to tell your story after walking through the valley of the shadow of death. Amazingly you are working seriously to assist others find themselves. Thank you for sharing

Merlin James
Apr 03
Apr 03

Thank you ! Every woman has a story of inspiration, its just that they need to share it to others to bring the change, lets work together, in sisterhood, Merlin

Olutosin
Apr 02
Apr 02

Welcome home sister dearest!

Merlin James
Apr 03
Apr 03

Love you my dearest sister !

Hannah B
Apr 03
Apr 03

Welcome back Merlin! Your voice is always welcome and valued here on World Pulse, and I am excited to hear more about your work!
Warmly,
Hannah

Merlin James
Apr 04
Apr 04

Dear Hannah,
Thanks for the love, sending much love too to you. Let's travel together sharing and listening to each other!

Merlin