I BELIEVE SHARING IS HEALING

mjukuuwabintisimba
Posted July 6, 2020 from Kenya

Its my first time to share here, though I dont know much about world pulse

I come from a very poor background, when growing up, my mom had a lot of hope in me, she trusted me becoz as a child I grew up knowing God and i loved church so much at times I could lock myself in the house, sing, pray to God and all those. I followed everything written in the Holy Book, my mom struggled to take me to school as a single parent. She and I had hopes that one day I will help her and take my family out of poverty...but this was not the case, 

After completing my studies, i tarmacked without getting any job, not even a waitress or cleaning job, it seemed that my life was hooted by an owl. After years of tarmacking my relatives  lying to me that they will find me a job, I gave up on everything...  ...I didnt want to go back home since I had failed my mom she had hopes in me, I had nothing  on many occasions I was kicked out due to rent arrears and I had no where to go, I stopped calling my relatives and moved to the streets, many are times I slept on an hungry stomach in the cold streets, molested, mistreated and all that....Sometimes a stranger (man ) would lie to me that he was taking me to his home, but after using me he would send me back the streets.. I ended up hating men and all people.. anywhere I went calamities followed me.. i had no place to hide. 

One of relatives managed to locate me in town at night aiming aimlessly with nowhere to go, mark you, i didnt even have a phone. She called me to her place, and after some months I managed to get a job.  Problems did not end there, in payday as I was sleeping in the mid of the night, some robbers came, broke in through the window, beat me badly leaving permernent injuries on me...The faith I had in God gradually diminished and I don't trust anyone easily.. I view people as other species different from what I am, I still leave in absolute hatred and denial and alot of pain o f past experiences.

 

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Chi8629
Jul 06
Jul 06

Hello Beautiful Mijukuuwabintisimba ,
How are you doing today?
Hope you are doing good?
Iam sincerely sorry for what you have passed through ,you are not alone my darling ,I passed through exactly all this but I still hope and have faith in the Almighty ,As long as there is life my dear Sister there is hope ,I believe that you will still make your mum proud , Don't relent sweet sister ,have faith in God after the rain comes sunshine ,you will smile again ,.We are here for you . If you need some one to talk to iam here always and I love you . Congratulations on your first post and thank you for sharing . Stay safe .

mjukuuwabintisimba
Jul 06
Jul 06

Ok thank u

What a lovely message, dear Chioma.

Chi8629
Jul 08
Jul 08

Thank you so much Sister . Much love .

Hello, Mjukuuwabintisimba,

How are you doing, dear? Are you staying in a safe place now?

You're so brave to finally share your first post. What you've been through is not easy. I'm sorry you've gone through those hardships and eventually lost faith in God.

You're such a strong woman to endure it all. You are right sharing your story is healing. Please keep writing here. Write all those pains and hurts away. We your sisters are here.

Please stay safe. Hugs, dear. We see you. We hear you. We value you!

mjukuuwabintisimba
Jul 09
Jul 09

am gud thank u

Laetitia Shindano
Jul 13
Jul 13

chere Mujuuku

Bienvenue dans la communauté mondiale des soeurs et merci pour le partage de ton post . On dit que le silence tue mais toi tu as rompu le silence. Je penses que tu as toi meme soigné tes blessures. Donc commencez maintenant une nouvelle vie avec beaucoup de Courage et de Détermination .

A te lire bientot

Laetitia

Anita Shrestha
Jul 13
Jul 13

Thank you for sharing

Carol Sunborn
Aug 08
Aug 08

Sharing is healing, dear one. You are special. You are able to tell your story here. We will listen and support your voice, ideas, plans with loving kindness.
Thinking of you.