Her Religion

I am still bitter
I am still in a love-hate state with you
I don’t want to get married to you
I guess am just passing time with you
If that’s the case then I am wasting my time
I might be letting real love pass-me by while trying to work things out
Anyway I don’t see any potential “husband” around me

What is keeping me in this relationship is my interpretation of the Bible
If wasn’t for that I would have been gone long ago
I want to punish you for everything you have done to me
I hope you will get a way out of the country
So this can end -I know you want to be free
I don’t know why you are with me
I think you are also passing time with me
Waiting for someone better to come along -Then you can take leave

But sometimes I want to love you and forgive you
Hoping you saw the \"light\"-that you should behave better, treat me better

I guess I am hoping that since I am staying for the sake of following the Biblical teachings
That God will change what am going through for the sake of my belief
That God will save the relationship and heal the wounds and make everything okay
Am getting more strength to leave the relationship as the pain and reality sets in

Am I being stupid?
Why do I believe that my faith will turn a frog into prince charming?
I have no one to turn to-only God.
I have to believe in God’s power
He is the only one who helps me keep hope alive in these dark hours.