Moment that shifted me

From the age of 9 years old my mother allowed men to do sexual violations on me. My mother was a sex worker and lived in the gatwick hotel with me she often had to make her abusive boyfreind money when she could not she sold me. Even my father sexual abused me untill i was 15. My prents often told me people make fun of thoses like myself and tired very hard to bury my past and live a lie doing this court up to i was eventually hospitallized in a mental health hospital with feelings that hurt so bad i thought it would have killed me alone. I had no help from doctors who all the did was medicate me with benzos the only solution to dope me up. In my darkness and hardest point i trund my life around i startd exercises and diet i lost 45 kilos in 4 months i class 3 mobetly obease challengeing my emotional eating habits was the hardest thing i had done. Eveyday now i struggle with ptsd now i try my way to heal it. You can follow the documentary i did about recovery from truma and changeing you life thedangerousdance.com/portfolio-item/nicole-austin-reid/