I speak out to heal

Nnenna Hannah okoh-Metu
Posted April 5, 2018 from Nigeria

 

Outraged to speak,

Outraged by fear,

Sinking me beneath,

I arise out of it,

To speak and be free.

 

I cant say exactly when it happenned, the month is still vivid but the day and time have suddenly erased in my mind.

I dared that day even memories have refused to fade.its exactly 13 years now,in the  month of febuary,in the city of enugu in nigeria,i was then a polytehnic student,i remember we where ask to leave the school premises because we were through with our 2 years diploma programme,i beg and ask to stay but was told to leave immediately to allow other student in the school hostel,i carried my bag,losts and in thought ,thinking of where to go from there.

It was a little past 7pm on that febuary night, as i sink in thought,thinking what and where to go next.

Feeling a little tired,i sat on the in ogui road area,i had very little money on me,and nowhere to go.

After a little while a young man aproached me,he sounded very nice at first,and ask me what and why i sat there that night,i innocently narracted to him,and he offered to help out telling me he had a sister that could sleep in her house.

I was naive at that time,i didnt know i was getting myself into arms way,so along the way to his supposely sister house,he stopped two other men and whispered something to them, before i knew it,i was violently carried away,an handkerchief was placed on my nose,i lost conciousness.

I woke up naked and all briuse,feeling lost i was left by my captive a days later,by then i have been raped massively and abused.

I got my things together and cried my eyes out,as i left the building i meet a woman who told me that she heard screams.

She carried me in,cared for me and gave me money to join my family back in lagos.

I am among the lucky few because i didnt get pregnant and catch a terrible disease,i couldnt tell anyone this part of me for years.

I keep this away because i felt ashamed and the society i live in will blame me for this rape.

Rape is the most unreported case in Nigeria, the raped is blamed so she seek solumn in herself,i have carried this pain for 13 years.

I speak out to break the silence , eventually i will heal.

This story was submitted in response to You Are a Silence Breaker.

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Olutosin
Apr 05, 2018
Apr 05, 2018

My sister, you are standing on the shoulders of giants, speak out and keep on speaking out. It's not your fault. You are stronger than the strongest. Love love love you and I love your voice too.
Keep on writing princess.

Nnenna Hannah okoh-Metu
Apr 05, 2018
Apr 05, 2018

Thank you sister,this pain have really eaten me,i know with my sisters by my side,i will heal and blossom again

Tamarack Verrall
Apr 05, 2018
Apr 05, 2018

Dear Nnenna,
My heart goes out to you for all you have been through, and for these long years that you silently carried that horrible and terrifying night. I hope that you become more and more filled with a feeling of freedom and power. Your speaking out about what happened will warn other girls, and will convince other girls and women that they too were absolutely not to blame. You are standing strong with all of your sisters now. I see the poet in your opening words. Soar into your beautiful leader self. We are with you.

With love in sisterhood,
Tam

Nnenna Hannah okoh-Metu
Apr 06, 2018
Apr 06, 2018

Thank you tam,i learnt my lesson a long time ago,i have grown stronger after speaking out, thanks for your kind words.
Love
Nnenna

Jill Langhus
Apr 06, 2018
Apr 06, 2018

Hi Nnenna. Good luck with your submission. I think more people need to hear your story so that they and you can heal from it, knowing that you are not alone:)

Nnenna Hannah okoh-Metu
Apr 06, 2018
Apr 06, 2018

Hi jlanghus,how can i get more people to hear my story

Jill Langhus
Apr 07, 2018
Apr 07, 2018

Hi there. Well, do you have a blog? I can't remember. I can also share your story on my FB and Twitter pages. I will do that:)