Growning up as an orphan in a poor home /peer pressure/ macturity in my youth

Npako Moudi Ivoline
Posted July 27, 2020 from Cameroon

Here a youth of my age growing up in a poor home as a teenager ,losed her parents at a very youthful age and then was living with her grandmother. I had the dreams of a book writter and I had always desired to become a lawyer. I had a limitation ,I forgot I wasn't able to, because my home had no solid foundation when it comes  to finance . I losed my confidence as a youth ,I lived in between comparism and education ,I can say I was comfused but I wasn't because I needed care like any other person . My friends made me feel very inferior amongst them ,true I had nothing good to show for ,I looked funny at school and even worst at home . There was this thing called peer pressure , of course my friends were the most attractive and had boyfriend's and the first class ,I needed to fit in ,I wanted friends too but unfortunately that was wrong but as days went on and I kept on trying , it never worked for me because I was poor and lived in a funny and less attractive building . I started loosing friends and had enemies more ,it wasn't my fault I say ,that I was an orphan . I began to forcus more on my looks than my education and started disobedience at home because I couldn't get what I needed ,I was tired of Insult in the quarter and at school . I needed to fit in a space like any other child but as time went on I began to see my grandmother  faded away. Now, who will sponsor me in school, who will guide me mentally because I lived amongst bully's who gave me little or no concern at that age ,I needed serious guides but no one was  available..I lived in regrets an great pain , uncle's and Aunty's kept on lying to help me but no one did help me . Days went on and I began to see myself growing on more macture . I had only toilet tissue to use during mentruation and that was harmful to my health ,thanks to herbal care I would have had serious infection which obviously I once had serious and terrible complications . Tell me , at that time I was bent on taking from boys to care for my sanitaries and under wears . I thank God because I didn't mess up because that would have been the end of my story . 

i started going to church and attending serminars which some adults invited me to attend ,I had the privilege for the first time where I learned alot and it began to change me and healing some terrible inner wounds I had in my heart . I know it wunt still change the fact that I'm still an orphan till date and I am still living like a begger at the mercy of others and still hoping for some help from people but I think I am  better than before because I Know God now and I am pleased because at my age now I know the value of acquiring more knowledge and creating impacts in this generation. World pulse for women empowerment is my joy ,it makes me feel great like I have never felt this way in a million years . My past is my story today and I love my story because it keeps me going . I'm growing to be the best even if there is no money ,I most be that person every one would like. For I am living in a generation of child abuse , peer pressure and so on . There is morethan enough work to do than living in regrets and pain ,for it wunt get me nowhere.

I finally losed my grandmother in 2016 and there I struggle and i had my Olevels and in 2018 I had my Advance level . Not any easy fight but I am at home because of the malitarian crises In my country but not much I know there is more waiting for me out there . I am pleased because I am here and been here I hope will make you all pleased that is my story In a summary . I will let any youth know that circumstances of life wether good or bad shouldn't take away your confidence but instead fight peer pressure, gender base violence , inferiority complex and other social ills to get money but go more for knowledge. I am Npako Moudi ivoline . Now I'm 21years old  .Thanks to adult mentorship and counseling,   .... Thanks to world pulse for women empowerment .

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Honorine Ngenwi
Jul 27
Jul 27

That was an interesting one but forget the fact that you are an orphan and move on. World pulse is here advise you on how to go about your problem. My regards.

Npako Moudi Ivoline
Jul 28
Jul 28

Thank you very much sister

Busayo Obisakin
Jul 27
Jul 27

Dear Npako
Hope you are doing well! I am so happy to hear that you are moving on despite your struggle when you were growing up. I could understand where you are coming from because I lost my dad also at a very tender age. My dear, we may not be able to change our past but we can determine our future and that is what matters. Continue to thrive my dear Sister and sky is even the beginning for you
Love
Busayo

Npako Moudi Ivoline
Jul 28
Jul 28

Thank you very much ...

Shirin Dalaki
Jul 27
Jul 27

Npako,

Welcome to WP and thanks for sharing your story. As I was reading your story I realized how strong you are and that you are much bigger than the obstacles in front of you. We are here to empower one another and you are such a gift to this universe and knowledge is all you need to do what you want to do in life. I am so proud of you.

Npako Moudi Ivoline
Jul 28
Jul 28

I'm Soo pleased ,thank you.

Shirin Dalaki
Jul 28
Jul 28

You welcome dear.

Chi8629
Jul 27
Jul 27

Welcome to worldpluse .
Congratulations on your first post . Thank you for sharing Sister .

Hello, Npako,

Welcome to World Pulse! What a joy that a new voice from Cameroon is rising up!

You're only 21 years old, and yet you've overcome many challenges already. That is your strength, dear. Yes, you can be a book writer! Yes, you can be a lawyer. Do what you can today to prepare you for tomorrow's opportunities. For example, start journaling! Start reading about laws.

Please keep on writing. We would love to know more about you. I hope you can connect to our global sisters and access opportunities on the Resources Page.

I'm looking forward to reading more from you. Welcome again to our growing sisterhood!

Npako Moudi Ivoline
Aug 02
Aug 02

Thank you dear .

Thelma obani 2020
Jul 29
Jul 29

Continue to win regardless of whatever that has happened.
You are strong and amazing.

Npako Moudi Ivoline
Jul 31
Jul 31

Thank you dear

maeann
Jul 31
Jul 31

Welcome to World Pulse Npako. How are you?

That is very interesting... adult mentorship and counseling. We need this especially now. But good to know that you have overcome those years. And now you become a woman of passion, where you can be of a blessing to other women too.

Thank you for sharing :)

Npako Moudi Ivoline
Aug 01
Aug 01

Thank you very much .