Breath OR Die

Jane
Posted October 30, 2019 from South Africa
Hugging my mental challenged friend
Love conquers ALL

World Pulse has been my inner power that pushed me toward taking action and toward achievement. It has given me the strongest desire to do and accomplish something that I now see and find as important to me and to those I love. You have motivated my ambition, and the desire to do and accomplish things. I have never thought I could come to a conclusion of wanting to write a memoir BUT due to my interaction with Karen and on World Pulse platform, I am more than motivated and already started that road. Thank you Karen and World Pulse.  

Through my journey of life, World Pulse helped me not to let yesterday take up too much of today. Through sharing and reading from my fellow members of World Pulse, I have learned that while we must accept that problems are a part of reality and will occur, we must never allow them to encompass all our time and thoughts. Putting too much focus on the challenges and past sadness or treatment or unloved circumstances we faced, can break our spirit, crush our heart, strip our energy, and steal our happiness. Much of our happiness is up to us. 

Through this journey, World Pulse made me see life differently and to appreciate life as well as count my blessings. Working with the mental challenged, being closer and being in their space, made me see, love is the most beautiful thing. Love can move mountains, changes the taste of bitter lemons into sweet lemonade. Love becomes alive when you start feeling happy within and appreciate everything that is laid before you. Imagine hugging the mental challenged person, what do you expect their reaction would be? I have  done that and the reaction of affectionate hug back filled with laughter because of acceptance, that moment is priceless and I wouldn't have gone through that  extra mile if I haven't read some of the stories on World Pulse of people sharing how much receiving love is so precious to them. We all have gone through different trial and bitter love or denied love, painful childhood (like I did) but the moment I started sharing my stories here, all the negative thoughts turned to positiveness and it was like a switch from darkness into immediate light.  I am now a happy soul and I cant thank this platform well enough. Jill can ascertain the anger i portrayed as I related the story of how my daughter I raised for 29 years and was about to be a qualified lawyer died mysteriously within 10 days in her marriage, losing 29 years of single motherhood raising a girl child in 10 days that was the worse blow for me to go kill someone (the anger and resentment I felt) BUT right now that anger has changed into acceptance of love and taken that trial into lesson learned. 

To accomplish the goal of remaining happy through trials, we must develop the personal discipline to accept the situation at hand, but never allow ourselves to get engrossed. We can’t ignore it, and we can’t pretend it isn’t happening or has happened but rephrase and train our heart and mind that, it happened and it is something we cannot change,  whatever is not in our control, we must methodically set aside worrying and pondering about it day and night will not change it and teaches ourselves to practice how to accept what we cannot change in order to move forward because if we "dwell" in that space of unhappiness and anger, our lives stops right there and it is as good as stopped breathing and be dead..

Being here has thought me to FORGIVE, I have been wronged so badly, I was a child and known nothing and meant no harm to anyone, the pain I have felt placed so many obstacles in my life, however, sharing that here helped me to try hard to limit the effort of being placed into forever angry mode or made into being angry with whoever wronged me. It is fine to blow off steam, but let it go as quickly as possible. I learned that allowing blame and anger to fester have robbed me and could continue to rob me of the ability to think clearly to work through the problem and get ahead and the “blame game” and the anger that comes with it will make me feel sad and unhappy of which this will not only affect me but my innocent children and those around me and this would be a roller coaster with unending hate triangle and I couldn't put my children in a same space I have been and hated so much till now. I had to breath or die and I am breathing and living. Thank you World Pulse. 

This story was submitted in response to #OurImpact.

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maeann
Oct 30
Oct 30

Hi Jane,

Thank you for sharing how World Pulse encourage and inspired you together with a new friendship created with Karen.

You are a strong woman.

Jane
Oct 30
Oct 30

Thank you Maeann, you all have surely inspired me with your writings, stories and motivation as well as your encouragement. Thank you most kindly

maeann
Oct 30
Oct 30

Youre welcome hugs

Jill Langhus
Oct 30
Oct 30

Hello Dear Jane,

What a great achievement-over-obstacles story and celebration of you, Karen and World Pulse! So, glad to hear you're in a better place now and that we were all able to help you collectively:-) Congrats, dear! Onward and upward:-)

XX

Jane
Oct 30
Oct 30

Thank you most kindly Jill, it might seem like a short journey but to me sounds like a life time experience I have gained through your motivations and encouragements. Lets keep moving and again, thank you for all your support which placed me where I am right now "a better and peaceful place"

Hugs

Jill Langhus
Nov 01
Nov 01

You're very welcome, dear!

Yay! Great to hear. You have come a long way in a short period of time. I hope you give yourself a big pat on the back, for real:-)

Yes! I'm very, very glad to hear it!

XX

Marie Abanga
Oct 30
Oct 30

Dear Jane,
I can feel you breathing as you write. Yes, your first post came across to the psychologist in as that of an angry and bitter sister. But, here you are barely a few month later, teaching us all this about the power on now and acceptance.
Thank you so much for the impact through your story and journey. Courage with the memoir, it will sure make a great read.
Light and love
Marie

Jane
Oct 30
Oct 30

Thank you my sister, there will be no other family I would love to share my memoir more than my World Pulse family who encouraged me to go that level. thanks so much. Hugs and kisses

Hello, Sister Jane,

I simply want to run to you at this moment and hug you so tight! I am honored and humbled that our paths crossed on this platform.

It was an amazing experience to witness you grow from a new member sharing your first story into a vocal contributor then encourager then Ambassador then Featured Storyteller. There’s no stopping you now, dear, because the world has yet to read the beautiful lessons from your memoir.

I am so happy that you are free from the chains of anger and hatred! What you’ve gone through wasn’t easy at all, but how you rose up to create your best life is truly inspiring!

Yay! Congratulations on every growth you experience on this platform. We love you, and we celebrate you, dear!

Thank you for sharing your story! Hugs!

Jane
Oct 30
Oct 30

I am really honored and humbled as well and the thought of this journey only brings tears of joy this moment. Thank you so much. I will continue to grow and be that child who feels loved and appreciated for the first time. Thank you

You're welcome, dear sister Jane, a woman of the Most High! You are born for this, created to manifest God's glory within you. I celebrate your triumphs and testimonies! Press on!

Anita Shrestha
Oct 31
Oct 31

Dear Sister
This is great news.